My Monthly Memories: November 2K17

Hi, there! It took me almost two weeks after November to write and partake in this blogging event called, #mymonthlymemories hosted by a gorgeous blogger, Basant She. I’ve been doing this every month post for almost about two years now and I always find pleasure. You may want to visit her wonderful blog entitled, The Socially Anxious Extrovert.

 

I love those random memories that make me smile, no matter what’s going on in my life right now.

 

Enough with the introduction. With a lot of things going on in my life this year, I find myself doing things that I don’t usually do. I’m afraid, November is one of those months that I failed to write a post other than a monthly memory. Being a Freelancer or a work from home mother is not really an easy profession. It takes a lot of willpower, hard work, and dedication to succeed. I must admit, I’m not even halfway there but I’m learning and I feel good about it. There were days, I hit my keyboard, letting words flow freely then I would suddenly stop then lost it. I even thought one time, what’s wrong with me? Do I really lose my muse? Where and how can I find it?

Last month, I decided to go back to one of my hobbies – reading suspense thriller and investigative books. Lawrence Sanders, Scott Turow, and John Lescroart are my favorite legal thriller novelists. I’ve recently read The Fourth Deadly Sin, The 13th Juror, Presumed Innocent, Cruel Justice, and Lifeguard. I finished them all in a week. It’s nice to go back to old habits.

Last month of the year is finally here. I am positive that things will fall into place bit by bit. Here’s hoping for better days and more blogging time this month of December. Enjoy life!

 

 

My Monthly Memories: October 2K17

 

How time flies. It’s been about three days now since October had ended. So here I am, writing #mymonthlymemories. This is in response to a blogging event hosted by a pretty blogger, Basant She of The Socially Anxious Extrovert. For detailed instructions, kindly click here. I will be delighted to read your post.

 

I love those random memories that make me smile, no matter what’s going on in my life right now.

 

Truth be told, the month of October is another tough month. Feeding five mouths with a limited income are but a pain. Not to mention the pile of bills waiting to be paid. It is more than a challenge to maintain composure in the midst of a financial crisis. Holding on to my resolve is really draining my energy. Welcome back, sleeplessness. I thought I will be able to beat you in no time. On a positive note, I was able to post articles and partake with blogging events like Three Line Tales, Weekly Writing Prompts, and Daily Prompts.

Others may find it odd, but I am still grateful to God for everything. These series of unfortunate events is but a part of life. I have no other choice but to face it head-on.  My faith that the best is yet to come is still greater than all of the difficulties and my heartbreaks combined. With this being said, I would like to share this song to all of you, hoping that you will find relief with the burdens you carry and your faith renewed.

 

I am learning to be kind to myself these days. I am now taking single-parenthood one step at a time. Patience is still not my thing and I doubt that it will be in the future but at least I am learning to calibrate it with my stubbornness. I have yet to find a long-term full-time job, I may be running out of time but I have put my trust in God, He knows exactly what I need. I can’t thank Him enough for all His loving-kindness. My children are healthy and I am still able to feed them.

Any help that I could get from relatives, friends and even strangers are much appreciated. I find myself thinking about this for several days and even nights and personally, I never thought I’d be this desperate. I have included a link to my most recent resume here, maybe you can recommend me if ever you stumbled upon a post for a home-based full-time job. May God bless us all.

My Monthly Memories: September 2k17

The first ‘Ber month‘ of the year has passed us by. Before I knew it, it’s 1st of October already. Another proof that time is so powerful it cannot be cheated. This is in response to a blogging event called #mymonthlymemories hosted by a gorgeous blogger, Basant She of  The Socially Anxious Extrovert. You may want to visit her blog to find good reads. And if you’d like to join us, kindly click here for instructions.

September is one of the toughest months this year. The first week, I lost my full-time job as a Freelancer, my internet connection has been restricted due to late payment, not to mention the series of unfortunate events that followed that I don’t want to remember nor mention here. For someone who is a mother of four children, who is renting a house, making both ends meet is tougher when her partner is not supporting her financially anymore. I rarely sleep soundly these days. I am so preoccupied with a lot of things. Would you believe that I even beat myself with household chores to death so that once I lay my body in bed, I could easily sleep? That’s how wretched my life has been that month.

I love those random memories that make me smile; 
no matter what’s going on in my life right now.

Thank God for His mercy and grace, I am still able to survive that ordeal and life these past few days is getting better. I just nailed down a full-time job again which will start on Monday. I know that the salary is not that big but at least it would help augment our daily needs.

Back to blogging. It must be noted that there are still blessings in disguise whenever someone faces difficulties in life. I’ve had more time to write on my blog since I don’t have work for more than two weeks. I’ve written at least ten posts including 3LineTales – Give In and Daily Prompts – Fondness for Him, The Novelist, Focus, and Coincidence. You’d put a smile on my face once you check them out.

I have learned to force myself to be cheerful in whatever situation I may find myself. For I believe that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is determined not by our circumstance but by our disposition.

As of now, I cannot say that I would be more active again in blogging but I’ll do my best to at least write a post every once in a while this month. I feel better these days, somehow. I would like to express how grateful I am that even though my blog is not that active in the past few months, there are still people who took time to visit or check my posts. I am still blessed.

Once again, cheers to better blogging and better days this month of October.

 

 

 

 

 

My Monthly Memories: August 2K17

 

It has been about four months now since I landed a full time home based job as a Technical Support/Sales and it’s been about that period that I haven’t written any article in this blog aside from this monthly blogging event, #mymonthlymemories. A big shout out to a pretty blogger, Basant She of The Socially Anxious Extrovert for coming up with such an amazing idea of making a journal in one’s blog in at least once a month. I would be delighted for you to read other’s entries and more if you’d join us as well. For instructions, kindly click here.

Timing has never been this cruel. Every attempt of doing things right within my perceived time frame is not working for me these days. This is just so ridiculous and unfair. I am having difficulty understanding what the universe is trying to tell me.

Good timber does not grow with ease.
The stronger the wind the stronger the trees. – Thomas S. Monson

Truth be told, I am not a patient person. I despise having to wait, especially if it is something that could be done right away. I know we cannot outrun time let alone snatch back moments that passed us by. Our situation last week has been tougher than tough. It was as if all forces in heaven and on earth is in connivance to pin me down. It was awful. Every twist and turn of events, obviously, isn’t in my side. I’m on the verge of breaking down. I’ve never felt so dragged and exhausted, never felt so mocked and helpless.

 

I love those random memories that makes me smile;
no matter what’s going on in my life right now.

 

 

 

I’m not trying to be funny here, forgive me that this may turn out to be a rant o a way to vent my frustrations with life. Believe me, I didn’t mean to sound like that. I’m not begging for sympathy, I am just being kind to myself by de-cluttering my mind and detoxifying my soul. This is my blog, anyway. I would do anything I can to lessen my burden because my children still needs me. With God’s help and mercy, I know these difficulties shall pass. I just need to keep the faith, hold on, and keep on moving forward no matter what.

Here’s hoping beyond hopes for a wonderful and fruitful September for all of us. Cheers!

 

 

My Monthly Memories: July 2K17

This must be one hell of a rough month in blogging I must say. I’ve attempted a couple of times to write and post an article and to my dismay, unable to. I’ve never felt so helpless and weak with my blog before. It’s as if one of my dreams is dying on me. But I won’t let this continue. I would do everything I could to keep this blog even if it would mean taking an hour out of my sleeping time to make up for all the loss. I’m just so thankful that there are still people who’d spare a couple of minutes of their precious time to check on my posts, hit like, write a comment. For all fellow bloggers who followed my blog, let me express how grateful I am, you’re all awesome.

 

I love those random memories
That makes me smile;
No matter what’s going on
In my life right now…

This is in response to a blogging event, entitled #mymonthlymemories hosted by a friend-blogger, of The Socially Anxious Extrovert. You may want to visit her wonderful blog and find articles worthy to read. Better yet, join us in writing your monthly memories about what transpired in your blog and in your life every month. Nostalgia is always a good thing. It paints a smile on our lips whenever it reminds us of things that happened in the past that’s worth remembering, things that made us so happy. Making us realize how beautiful life could be no matter what is in front of us in the present, may it bad, or worse. And when everything seems to go down the drain, it is what keeps us our sanity and our drive for success. I always find delight in sharing a part of myself and writing a monthly journal, as I put it, is one way to declutter my mind, relieve my soul from too many burdens. Thus, making room for positive thoughts and feelings.

July’s definitely a hectic and productive month when it comes to working from home. I was able to land additional part time job as an email responder. I just started last week and now awaiting my first salary this coming Friday.  The pay is not that decent compared to my full time job as a Technical Support/Sales Representative but at least it will still help us with our growing everyday expenses. As I always say, we can only do so much and part of me is not pleased since I am way behind with all the blogging event I join every week. It’s really hard to keep up.

I won’t promise but I’m confident enough to be back with a bang. I know I’m way past contemplating. still, I believe that God gave us the ability to do what we want and need to do as long as we put our minds to it and do it with hope and dedication. Here’s cheering for an amazing August.

My Monthly Memories: May 20K17

I love those random memories
That makes me smile;
No matter what’s going on
In my life right now…

 

 

Hi there people! I’ve been doing this blogging event called #mymonthlymemories for more than a year now. This is hosted by a gorgeous blogger, Basant She of The Socially Anxious Extrovert. I always enjoy writing, reading, and being nostalgic. For me, looking back serves as a tracker of my progress as an individual and as inspiration to be a better version of myself. For full instructions, kindly click here. It’d be great to be updated with your blog as well.

This month, I must say is terrific. Everything’s mixed up. Emotional roller coaster ride, financial crisis, health issues, and pressure at work. Thank God, I’m surviving.

Forcing myself to be tough in times when I feel weaker than weak is more than I can handle. And yet, here I am, with God’s help and mercy, able to stand in the midst of a difficult battle. I may be a loner but when it comes to trials and adversities I prefer to have someone to lean on, someone who’ll be there to at least listen to me while I pour all my worries and fears. It doesn’t matter if that person would be able to help me solve my problem, being there to lend an ear, offering a shoulder to cry on, and giving words of encouragement is more than enough to make me feel quite at ease.

Push yourself because no one else is going to do it for you.

Having a domestic partner abroad, I am left alone to care for our four children and be a housekeeper. Damn, I hate the housekeeper part, honestly. It never crossed my mind that I’d be trapped in this kind of situation. My only consolation is I now have plenty of time to be with my children and bond with them. Forgive me for my random thoughts. Huh! isn’t it what this blog is all about? Jeez!

Going back to my blog, I must say that this May would be the month of the year that I’ve written few articles and I’m guilty as ever. What I’m going through these days put a toll in my writing, sad to say. Hopefully this June would be different. I’d appreciate having you check one of my favorite entry for this month entitled, Numbers.

I may have little time for my blog for now but rest assured that it won’t be abandoned. I can also sneak with your blogs from time to time and write articles whenever time permits. I can still see new follows, likes, and comments and it makes me feel more than appreciated and inspired. Here’s hoping to keep up with this fast paced world of ours and enjoy life no matter how fierce and cruel it may be. Cheers to a new month!

My Monthly Memories: April 2K17

 

Nostalgia is one of the most wonderful things in this lifetime. It resides in our hearts, makes us feel various emotions, gives us strength and a reason to hope for a brand new day. As for me, reminiscing is but an everyday companion. It soothes my weary spirit, renews my emotional strength, declutters my mind, and makes me believe that at the end of every dark tunnel there would always be a speck of light that beacons hope.

 

 

I love those random memories that make me smile; No matter what’s going on in my life right now.

 

 

Too much of an introduction. This is in response to a monthly blogging event hosted by a gorgeous blogger Basant She of The Socially Anxious Extrovert called #mymonthlymemories. It’s never late to join us, though. For details, kindly click here. I am really fond of writing something about my life’s experiences that’s worth remembering. So, whatever happens, as long as God is letting me breathe, I will continue doing this as long as my hands can write.

A for April. How would I put this? Well, this month is quite productive in a way. I’ve been working on a transcription job, earning a not so decent income but at least it adds extra bucks and creates a diversion from the usual household thingy. I am even planning to learn more about this field and maybe, maybe in the near future, I could do it full time to earn more while staying at home taking care of my children at the same time. I must admit, I’ve written too few articles this month, and too few followers, even comments for my posts. And I feel sad about it but reminded myself that I could always strike back. That there would always be this one chance, this once in a blue moon opportunity to shine, and when it does? I’d grab it and seize it as if my whole life depends on it. So what would we expect this May? More articles, I suppose. Substantial, more in-depth posts, more tweaks to keep you entertained.

 

 

Thank you all, for keeping up with my blog. For those times spared to at least stare, hit like, more with leaving a comment and also for the follows. These things never fail to put a smile on my face and create a glow in my eyes. May God Almighty bless us all!

 

My Monthly Memories : March 2K17

I love those random memories that makes me smile; No matter what’s going on in my life right now.

It beats me to dwell with so much anticipation last month. I thought, I could write more articles and poetry since school vacation is at hand. This reminds me of the fact that, we could only do what we can, we cannot really stretch time or force it to be on our side.

This is actually a response to a Blogging Event called #mymonthlymemories hosted by a pretty blogger, Basant She of The Socially Anxious Extrovert. For more details, kindly click here. What an amazing way to keep track of what transpired every month. Nostalgia is one of the many wonderful things that we can do in this lifetime, wouldn’t you agree?

So, here I am looking back and making the most of the memories of last month’s account. March is great, no doubt about it. We’ve celebrated our youngest third birthday in a staycation.

I did tried my best to catch up with blogging events I usually partake every week like Three Line Tales and TANKA poetry challenge. I would be delighted if you’d spare a couple of minutes of your time to check my entries here. I am also glad to be able to write Tokens of Gratitude post (after forty eight years, gosh!). If you are interested to read it kindly click here.

I am still happy that with so many things that’s going on in my life right now, my blog is still thriving. As of to date, I already have 347 followers. One of my Tanka poetry – Mother had been reblogged at MorgEn Bailey – Creative Writing Guru blog. I am eternally grateful.

Lastly, I can’t help but share that I’ve finally landed a home-based job that would at least add a few extra bucks to my partner’s remittance abroad. I am getting the hang of working a transcription job these past few days, and I don’t wanna lose the momentum. Cheers to a prosperous April!

Tokens of Gratitude: Memories and Dreams

It is easy to wear a smile when life flows along like a river with crystal clear waters. Cheerfulness comes naturally and positive aura is written all over one’s face. It goes without saying that wearing a frown is as natural as breathing when everything goes dead wrong.

Truth be told, I am not the strong person I pretended to be. With all the crisis we’ve been going through since the beginning of this year, the demands of raising four children alone (physically, I mean. My partner abroad never fail to support us), and the pressure of finding a decent work from home job is making me feel so exhausted. I just want to disappear. However, holding on to my sanity and forcing myself to be someone with iron will is out of the question – God entrusted me with adorable little creatures I cannot just abandon.

Finding some ‘me’ time is not really an issue because I am not the type of housekeeper who’d die finishing all household chores before taking a break. I won’t let time beat me or at least that’s what I thought. Harsh as it is, reality speaks that time can never be tamed. Once it’s gone, we cannot take it back. No wonder, God created memories and dreams.

Today, I would like to express how grateful I am that God allowed me to cherish wonderful memories and to dream about wonderful things. It helps me escape my present reality for a moment and gives me the will to hold on, to see things in a positive perspective, and to hope that the best is yet to come.

TANKA 22: Nostalgia

 

Spring is drawing near
Earth will be filled with cheers
Guess it can’t be helped
To cherish the memories we’ve shared
Everytime this season appears

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Cheers to my 22nd TANKA poetry so far! I am more than happy to partake in this wonderful activity hosted by a friend blogger, Kiwinana of Ramblings of a Writer. For instructions, kindly click here. Have nice week!