Beyond Hope #SoCS

beyond.jpgI have never felt this cold before. It’s as if I am inside a refrigerator waiting to be frozen to death and to meet oblivion. I feel more than numb, the excruciating pain I felt a couple of minutes ago is gone. I fell into a deep slumber. But before my consciousness left me, I finally utter my last prayer, that if ever fate would be kind enough to wake me up, I would be given a chance to find the man of my dreams alone and free.

 

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I ache to see his eyes burn for me, so intense that it could melt my heart in seconds. I want to feel the warmth of his touch, that lingering embrace that makes me feel secure. I would love to see us holding hands in public. Kissing me softly in front of other people. I would like to show the whole world that he is mine and I am his. That our love could outshine even the hotness of the sun.

 

Greetings!

This is in response to a Saturday blogging event hosted by Linda G. Hill entitled, Stream of Consciousness Saturday 

This may be late but better be late than never. Cheers!

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Fondness for Him

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I never felt safe and warm with someone other than him. Whenever I feel anxious and panicky, I just think of leaning my head on his shoulder or putting my face on his chest while I take a deep breath and everything seems to be alright.

Do you believe that the best love is unexpected? That you just don’t pick someone and cross your fingers that it’ll work out? That love, at first sight, is but a tip of the ice burg? When I talk and notice the way his lips curve when he smiles or the glow in his eyes while he listens to me without batting an eyelash. But of course, love is more of a decision not just feelings. When the other person becomes difficult to deal with and yet you stayed, that’s when you’ll know that it’s love. Genuine love is selfless and full of hope.

Nothing in the world smells as good as the person you love…

This really beats me. Whenever I encounter a place we’ve been, I can’t help but reminisce everything we’ve shared. His smell still lingers in our bed, and even in my head. I crave for his presence now that we’re a thousand miles apart and I doubt if I could ever love this way again.

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One Beat

couple.jpgTime stood still
When we’re together
This emptiness inside, you fill
And I couldn’t get better

Fate may be cruel, unfair
Yet you break through it
With iron will
Faced it with good intent

Truly, you are beyond compare
I always want you near
Whisper my name softly in my ear
Take me to places I’ve never been

Dance together in the rain
Hold each other amidst pain
And whenever we’re apart
think that our heart beats as one

-MNEMOSYNE

My Monthly Memories: July 2K17

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This must be one hell of a rough month in blogging I must say. I’ve attempted a couple of times to write and post an article and to my dismay, unable to. I’ve never felt so helpless and weak with my blog before. It’s as if one of my dreams is dying on me. But I won’t let this continue. I would do everything I could to keep this blog even if it would mean taking an hour out of my sleeping time to make up for all the loss. I’m just so thankful that there are still people who’d spare a couple of minutes of their precious time to check on my posts, hit like, write a comment. For all fellow bloggers who followed my blog, let me express how grateful I am, you’re all awesome.

 

brilliantI love those random memories
That makes me smile;
No matter what’s going on
In my life right now…

This is in response to a blogging event, entitled #mymonthlymemories hosted by a friend-blogger, of The Socially Anxious ExtrovertYou may want to visit her wonderful blog and find articles worthy to read. Better yet, join us in writing your monthly memories about what transpired in your blog and in your life every month. Nostalgia is always a good thing. It paints a smile on our lips whenever it reminds us of things that happened in the past that’s worth remembering, things that made us so happy. Making us realize how beautiful life could be no matter what is in front of us in the present, may it bad, or worse. And when everything seems to go down the drain, it is what keeps us our sanity and our drive for success. I always find delight in sharing a part of myself and writing a monthly journal, as I put it, is one way to declutter my mind, relieve my soul from too many burdens. Thus, making room for positive thoughts and feelings.

July’s definitely a hectic and productive month when it comes to working from home. I was able to land additional part time job as an email responder. I just started last week and now awaiting my first salary this coming Friday.  The pay is not that decent compared to my full time job as a Technical Support/Sales Representative but at least it will still help us with our growing everyday expenses. As I always say, we can only do so much and part of me is not pleased since I am way behind with all the blogging event I join every week. It’s really hard to keep up.

I won’t promise but I’m confident enough to be back with a bang. I know I’m way past contemplating. still, I believe that God gave us the ability to do what we want and need to do as long as we put our minds to it and do it with hope and dedication. Here’s cheering for an amazing August.

TANKA 21: Mi Amore

It’s in my nature
To find love that is pure
Be my own universe
Blood that runs through my veins
Who’s worthy of all my pain

mi amore


Hello, everyone! I can’t forgive myself if I forget to partake in this wonderful mental exercise – TANKA  Poetry challenge hosted by Kiwinana of Ramblings of a Writer blog. For instructions, kindly click here. I can’t wait to read your entry.

 

Once In A Lifetime

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He’s long gone yet his smell still lingers
I still feel his touch in my dreams
His fading footsteps as he walk away
I can’t open my mouth to beg him to stay
I cried a river that very day
Can’t stand looking at the doorway
My life fell apart yet he’s etched in my heart
Is this love more than lust?
The burning desire in our eyes
Our touch, it’s more hot than fire
Seventh heaven in an instant
Am I meant to love him from a distance?
He’s taken, I can’t stand a chance…

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 38

It’s time for our ‘Weekly Quotes To Ponder‘ moment. I can’t wait to share my thoughts about this quote.

I must say that I am one of the most stubborn and impossible person to deal with when it comes to relationships. I have a very volatile nature, I am neither hot nor cold. A gullible and impulsive type. No wonder I have few true friends. But that’s fine with me. I never chase people anyway.

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I am more of a ‘do not do what you don’t want others to do unto you’ type of person. I’m sure most of us, if not all, is familiar with the ‘Golden Rule’. One more thing, I have a strong belief in free-will. Never would I force others to agree with my own opinions or ideals, same goes with my partner. I never forced him to stay with me even though we have children or for the sake of keeping our family, not even once and will never be in the future. But don’t get me wrong, even though I made this clear to him doesn’t mean I don’t give a damn. In the contrary, aside from my faith in God, my family is the most important thing in this world for me. In their smiles lies my strength to move on despite all the difficulties in my way. Hearing their laughter reminds me that it is still great to be alive though the world seems getting cruel and cruel as days passed by. If I don’t have them, I doubt if I could survive this far.

I just wanted to share the quote above to shout out to the world how blessed I am to have a partner who stayed by my side no matter what. I am truly blessed. We may have misunderstandings most of the times, we may fight with petty things but at the end of it all we still have each other’s back. I thank God for him.

How about you? Have you found someone who took you just as you are no matter how difficult you can be? I’d be delighted to read your thoughts about this.