My Monthly Memories: October 2K17

 

How time flies. It’s been about three days now since October had ended. So here I am, writing #mymonthlymemories. This is in response to a blogging event hosted by a pretty blogger, Basant She of The Socially Anxious Extrovert. For detailed instructions, kindly click here. I will be delighted to read your post.

 

I love those random memories that make me smile, no matter what’s going on in my life right now.

 

Truth be told, the month of October is another tough month. Feeding five mouths with a limited income are but a pain. Not to mention the pile of bills waiting to be paid. It is more than a challenge to maintain composure in the midst of a financial crisis. Holding on to my resolve is really draining my energy. Welcome back, sleeplessness. I thought I will be able to beat you in no time. On a positive note, I was able to post articles and partake with blogging events like Three Line Tales, Weekly Writing Prompts, and Daily Prompts.

Others may find it odd, but I am still grateful to God for everything. These series of unfortunate events is but a part of life. I have no other choice but to face it head-on.  My faith that the best is yet to come is still greater than all of the difficulties and my heartbreaks combined. With this being said, I would like to share this song to all of you, hoping that you will find relief with the burdens you carry and your faith renewed.

 

I am learning to be kind to myself these days. I am now taking single-parenthood one step at a time. Patience is still not my thing and I doubt that it will be in the future but at least I am learning to calibrate it with my stubbornness. I have yet to find a long-term full-time job, I may be running out of time but I have put my trust in God, He knows exactly what I need. I can’t thank Him enough for all His loving-kindness. My children are healthy and I am still able to feed them.

Any help that I could get from relatives, friends and even strangers are much appreciated. I find myself thinking about this for several days and even nights and personally, I never thought I’d be this desperate. I have included a link to my most recent resume here, maybe you can recommend me if ever you stumbled upon a post for a home-based full-time job. May God bless us all.

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 41

 

Hello, wonderful people in blog-o-sphere! It’s been awhile since I’ve written a ‘Weekly Quotes To Ponder‘ post. For the benefit of those who just visited or stumbled upon this blog, I would like to say that this is supposed to be an every Wednesday feature. However, due to circumstances beyond my control, this part of my blog have taken into hiatus for the past couple of months.

‘No man is an island‘, as the saying goes. I’m sure most of us would agree that we need other people to survive in this world. The quote above resonated with me. I’ve been stuck in a difficult situation these days and is almost on the verge of giving up. I’ve never felt so worthless in my life, not until last week, where I failed miserably in resolving the financial crisis that we have. I lost my full-time work-from-home job, my internet connection has been restrained due to my unpaid balance, not to mention the lack of financial support from my partner abroad. I can’t help but wonder, how could this world be so cruel to me that it’s doing everything it could to pin me down?

Today, I just nailed down a new Telemarketing job with the help of a friend who is actually struggling with a more financial crisis than I could possibly imagine. Her family could hardly eat a decent meal a day. And yet here she is, still able to help others in her own way. I am so blessed to have known her. I pray to our God Almighty that she would be able to hang on and survive her own troubles.

I may not be able to do so much for her for now but I gave her some words of encouragement and assured her that if there’s anything I can do to help her, she need not think twice to reach out to me. As I always say, the best is yet to come…

I would be delighted to read your thoughts about the quote I shared. Have a wonderful week to you all!

 

My Monthly Memories: July 2K17

This must be one hell of a rough month in blogging I must say. I’ve attempted a couple of times to write and post an article and to my dismay, unable to. I’ve never felt so helpless and weak with my blog before. It’s as if one of my dreams is dying on me. But I won’t let this continue. I would do everything I could to keep this blog even if it would mean taking an hour out of my sleeping time to make up for all the loss. I’m just so thankful that there are still people who’d spare a couple of minutes of their precious time to check on my posts, hit like, write a comment. For all fellow bloggers who followed my blog, let me express how grateful I am, you’re all awesome.

 

I love those random memories
That makes me smile;
No matter what’s going on
In my life right now…

This is in response to a blogging event, entitled #mymonthlymemories hosted by a friend-blogger, of The Socially Anxious Extrovert. You may want to visit her wonderful blog and find articles worthy to read. Better yet, join us in writing your monthly memories about what transpired in your blog and in your life every month. Nostalgia is always a good thing. It paints a smile on our lips whenever it reminds us of things that happened in the past that’s worth remembering, things that made us so happy. Making us realize how beautiful life could be no matter what is in front of us in the present, may it bad, or worse. And when everything seems to go down the drain, it is what keeps us our sanity and our drive for success. I always find delight in sharing a part of myself and writing a monthly journal, as I put it, is one way to declutter my mind, relieve my soul from too many burdens. Thus, making room for positive thoughts and feelings.

July’s definitely a hectic and productive month when it comes to working from home. I was able to land additional part time job as an email responder. I just started last week and now awaiting my first salary this coming Friday.  The pay is not that decent compared to my full time job as a Technical Support/Sales Representative but at least it will still help us with our growing everyday expenses. As I always say, we can only do so much and part of me is not pleased since I am way behind with all the blogging event I join every week. It’s really hard to keep up.

I won’t promise but I’m confident enough to be back with a bang. I know I’m way past contemplating. still, I believe that God gave us the ability to do what we want and need to do as long as we put our minds to it and do it with hope and dedication. Here’s cheering for an amazing August.

TANKA 19: Inner Voice

 If conscience is pure
It makes no reasons obscure
Taming animals in us
Kindness, forgiveness overflows
Its color is as white as snow

 

 

 

 

 

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Here’s my entry for this week’s TANKA poetry challenge. I hope you’d enjoy reading it while looking at this blinding photo prompt. I definitely love the smile of this dog. And the snow, it’s making me feel this cold.

You may want to join us, for detailed instructions, kindly click here. Looking forward in reading yours.

My Monthly Memories: February 2K17

Time for my monthly recap and I am more than excited to share with you the things that transpired last month. By the way, this is in response to a monthly blogging event, called #mymonthlymemories hosted by a pretty blogger, Basant She of The Socially Anxious Extrovert blog.

There are a lot of good things that happened last February and I cannot thank God enough! I’ve celebrated my fifth birthday in spirit (I became affiliated with MCGI year back February 2012) on the 17th. Ever since I was baptized, my faith in God Almighty became strong, keeping me sane from all the crazy events and crazy people around me and making me more positive about the future – that the best is yet to come.

  I love those random memories
      that makes me smile
      no matter what’s going on
      in my life right now…

As with my blog, I was able to participate and make up for the weekly blogging activities like TANKA and Three Line Tales. I even had an entry for WordPress’ Daily Prompt entitled, Irresistible . I am happy that I was able to write at least more than 10 articles and I’m positive that I could write more this month. My children’s school days will be over soon and it means more free time for me, I’m so excited! I could write more, check and read blogs, and respond to comments in my blog.

February is good and I bet March would be better. That’s how I feel right now, actually. And I am determined to let it be this way every single day no matter how tough the trials can be. I’ve learned to be more optimistic nowadays and do whatever I can to understand others and it more than help me lessen my burdens and put a smile on my face. Here’s hoping you would all have more wonderful days ahead.

My Monthly Memories: January 2K17

It’s been about two days now that the first month of the year have ended. So abrupt that I haven’t even noticed it the other day. But if there’s one thing I won’t forget is doing #mymonthlymemories post. This would be my second year of doing this wonderful blogging activity hosted by a lovely blogger, Basant She. You may want to visit her blog, The Socially Anxious Extrovert and be entertained by her adventures about life.

      I love those random memories
      that makes me smile
      no matter what’s going on
      in my life right now…

I must say that this month of the year have been great and I’ve found myself smiling almost everyday. Learning the wisdom of giving without expecting anything in return, looking at things in a positive way no matter how awful it might be, and seeing the good side of others even if they did me wrong gave me peace of mind and happiness beyond measure. We truly have the power to turn disaster to our own advantage!

I would like to share my favorite post this January entitled, Silver Pride an entry to WordPress, Daily Prompt – Shine. It clearly defines how someone could still shine in the midst of adversities. I believe that the ability to surpass trials and difficulties in this life depends on a person’s mindset and determination. And I’m pretty sure almost all of you would agree that a problem is not really a problem if there’s a solution. So whatever situation we are in no matter how tough or insurmountable it may seem, we shouldn’t lose hope. Instead of wallowing in self doubt or self pity, we should put our best foot forward to advance and keep on going. Life may give us a series of unfortunate events but as long as God is allowing us to breath, we can still be happy and make others happy.

I’d like to share a few things that makes me happy these days:

Eat out with my children

Skype call from my partner

Eating one of my favorite foods

Writing using my pen with a cup of coffee

Cheers to a positive and happier February to all of us. I am grateful to God for all His grace. Having adorable and healthy children, and a very supportive partner is more than enough reason to celebrate life everyday.

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 36

 

This quote never fails to remind me of how things could be so extreme at times – be it good or bad. And today, things have gone from bad to worst. Truly, I am being tried on how I would deal with this blow. Until now, I am still trying to convince myself that I am just dreaming, that history would not repeat itself. If you’re following this blog for quite some time now, you may already read one of my posts entitled ‘Sudden Twist‘ where I shared a story about how a pet could touch someone’s heart.

 

while waiting for the vet

After what happened that time, I’ve been hesitant to get another puppy but since my children’s really fond of having a pet in the house, we bought ‘Maxie‘ (our second Chihuahua puppy) last December 10, 2016. She was one half month old then. Everything seems fine, she’s an adorable and energetic puppy and is fun to feed. Even giving her a bath is an easy task not to mention taking her outside for a walk in the morning. Then yesterday, we noticed that she’s not in her usual self, she seems so aloof and doesn’t want to eat. And her stool is watery. I took her to the vet this morning and have been diagnosed with Parvovirus – the same exact illness that struck our first puppy. I am truly broke – emotionally and financially. As of to date, she’d been given an antibiotic through IV and been confined in the clinic. According to the vet, there’s a fifty-fifty chance of survival so we’re still hoping she could make it.

I can’t help but wonder if this is just a coincidence or one of fate’s cruelty. When you are a stay at home mother of four children who rely upon just enough remittance abroad from your partner and is always struggling to make both ends meet, it is really tough to deal with this kind of situation. Honestly, I am caught in a dilemma at the last minute of taking our puppy to the vet. I even asked myself if it is worth the risk? I do understand the cost and it would really leave my wallet empty, however, I cannot just let the puppy die without giving it a chance. And besides, I don’t want to see it die in my arms just like our first puppy, so with closed eyes I did gave it a go. God’s willing, it will survive and worst come to worst, at least I won’t have any regrets.

While writing this post, I just received a call from the veterinary clinic saying that the puppy didn’t make it. I was shocked, it took me a minute or two to respond. Maybe it’s not yet time for us to have a long-term pet. Another heartbreak, I’d let it be for now. This too shall pass. I just pacify myself that even though she’s gone, all the fun memories we had with her would remain immortal.

My Monthly Memories: December 2K16

I love those random memories
that makes me smile
no matter what’s going on
in my life right now…

 

 

What I feel at this very moment is so profound, I’m afraid I can’t find a word to express it. However, writing gets the better of me. I find it irresistible at times, truly there’s something that’s waiting to explode. The year 2016 is finally over. That fast! And here I am, left with so many thoughts and overwhelming feelings I could hardly catch my breath.

Anyhow, life never stops as long as we’re breathing, so might as well choose to live and be merry. This is in response to a blogging event hosted by a beautiful blogger, Basant She called, #mymonthlymemories. A wonderful way to take note of the things that you want to cherish and reminisce, right? I’ve been doing this for 12 months now and I am more than happy to have come this far. This last entry in 2016 would also serve as my Year-End Review for my blog.

This blog is actually five years old but I have not written article/s until January of this year. My very first entry is an assignment for Blogging 101, entitled, Me and Myself. That blogging event did more than teach me the basics of blogging but also served as a trigger to push through with fulfilling my long-time dream to be a blogger. Something that brought me joy and happiness, something I would be proud of and cherish for the rest of my life.

A homebody and a nocturnal person that I am, I find peace and delight in writing articles and poetry ever since high school. I’ve kept those by myself and never grew tired of reading them over and over again like a litany whenever time permits. As I approached maturity, I realized, why not share it with others? It may entertain, inspire, and give hope in away. I do agree that random acts of kindness, no matter how small can at least touch another soul and make someone feel cared for. That’s what we all want, right? Someone to make us feel we exist. Talking about existence, a big shout out to all 328 bloggers who followed my blog. I may not be able to write all your names but I want to express how grateful I am that you took an interest. And to all those who stumbled upon my articles and poems, who spared a minute or two to read, like, and comment, I thank you all. You people add inspiration for me to keep on sharing a part of my soul. Furthermore, I cannot help but mention few bloggers who keep up with my blog ever since I started writing and considered them not only avid followers but more as friends, I would be delighted if you’d take time to visit/check their blogs:

1. Kiwinana of Ramblings of a Writer
2. Miriam of Out an’ About
3. spiritualjourney17
4. thatmishmash
5. Heide of THEFEELINGSIHAVE
6. Sonali of Howling With The Wolf
7. Infinite Living
8. Arcane Owl of A Wayward Scribblez
9. La Cronicas Del Otro Mundo
10. Tikeetha of A Thomas Point of View
11. Bikurgurl
12. Frank of Dutch goes the Photo

This may belong already but please forgive me if I would also want to share some of my articles and poems that I find special and worth reading. You’d definitely  put a smile on my face if you spare a couple of minutes of your precious time to check them out:

1. That Amazing Pain
2. #LoIsInDaBl Day 1 – True Self Love
3. Deep Inside
4. 3Line Tales
5. TANKA
6. AtoZ Challenge
7. Weekly Quotes To Ponder 16
8. Aftermath
9. Weekly Quotes To Ponder 31
10. Monday Morning Melts – SERENDIPITY
11. Life In Shambles
12. Tokens of Gratitude : Thank GOD

I’m almost done and I am more than satisfied and happy.  December indeed is one of the busiest and yet fulfilling month last year. I am only able to write 6 articles, I failed to partake with blogging events that I usually join every week. But one thing I’ve learned, we can only do what we can so whenever opportunity knocks, I grab it and make the most of it.

Another year has come, another chance is given by God Almighty to make our life worthwhile and use it to help others the best way we can and be happy no matter how tough our journeys might be. Once again, thank you all and God bless!

 

 

 

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 34

For me, one of the most wonderful feelings I’ve felt in this world is knowing someone could take me, which includes everything about me especially my flaws. I always find pleasure in expressing mine inside and out without fear that others won’t approve. There is no greater freedom but to do the things that could make us happy, right?

By the way, this is for our 34th Weekly Quotes To Ponder moment. Just sharing my thoughts about the quote above. I would be more delighted if you’d share yours! 

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 32

 

Have you ever been away with your family? When you’re used to spend your every day life with someone, do things with that person in a regular basis or he/she’s part of your daily routine, it’s not that easy to adjust or do stuffs without him/her  around anymore. It takes a lot of getting  used to and sometimes you’d even ask yourself if  it is real, the longing seems unbearable that at the back of your mind you’re convincing yourself that everything’s just a dream and all you need to do is wake up.

After living together for more than twelve years, my partner decided to work overseas to give us a better life and to prepare for our children’s future. It’s been about more than three years now and yet, I’m still struggling. I don’t think I can even get used to living without his physical presence especially when I’m seeing our children. Good thing he never fail to check on us on Facebook and he calls us regularly via Skype. It makes our distance closer and the longing quite bearable (still trying to convince myself here).

 

 

If we can afford to live a better life and prepare a bright future for our children without him going abroad and be away from us here in our own homeland, I’m pretty sure he’d prefer to stay beside me and raise our children together. I must say that he’s a lot more hands on with caring to our children than I am. He never fail to show how thoughtful and sweet he could be. Here’s hoping he’d bear in his mind that whenever he felt too worn out, he could always turn to us for moral support.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

That’s it for our ‘Weekly Quotes To Ponder’ feature. May God bless us all!