My Monthly Memories: September 2019

Cheers to a promising October! Yes, very promising indeed. I just nailed down another work from home job via Upwork on the 6th of this month. This is not about the month of October just to clear the air, huh. This post is a monthly blogging event called #mymonthlymemories hosted by a gorgeous blogger named, Basant She of The Socially Anxious Extrovert. You may want to take a peek on her blog and find her posts interesting and heart-warming. Better yet, come join the fun of reminiscing what transpired in each and every month of our lives especially in the blogging department. For instructions, kindly click here.

September is my birthday month. I feel more of a nineteen-year-old single lady than a thirty-nine-year-old single mother. I have never felt so liberated and bold in my life in a million years and the experience is so refreshing that happiness seems to cuddle me these days. I wouldn’t say that I am totally free from negative feelings but positivity always takes over. I’ve written at least two articles in my blog, at last, and I am feeling more accomplished. I’d appreciate it if you’d take a minute or two of your precious time to check them out – Chasing A Phantom and Weekly Quotes To Ponder 56.

I also met a lot of nice and wonderful people on the internet this month. People I may or may not even encounter in real life but could leave their mark in my life. I may not be able to mention all of their names but I’ve always expressed how I feel about them the best way I can.

I also encountered mean people on the web, indecent proposals, and weirdos. Truly, the virtual world could be as real as it can get. And the definition of expectations versus reality has evolved into a complicated form for me. And yet, I find the challenge compelling. Maybe because I’ve been stuck with the same situation, or should I say I’ve been confined inside a jaded life for so many years, I almost lost count of how plain and gray my world has been. But hey, it’s never been late to catch up and do the things that I’ve been aching to do in the past few years – mingling with others, taking chances. Who knows? Maybe my future partner is just around the corner? It won’t hurt too much to remain optimistic.

I guess this is it for my September adventure. Looking forward to a more productive month this October. May God Almighty keep us safe and blessed.

 

CHASING A PHANTOM

I need to knock some sense to myself. Not that I regret the things I did in the past two months. Gosh, those were one of the boldest and bravest I did in my life.  I don’t see anything wrong with getting out of my comfort zone and doing things beyond the ordinary to enjoy life. Genuine happiness is rare to come by in this cruel world, after all.

Most people nowadays misconstrued sex for happiness. I cannot blame them. It satisfies a man’s carnal nature but in a temporary way. But others still choose to do it because it is readily available with all these Social Media fevers not to mention Online Dating Sites. It is just a click, a message away to find another person who wants the same thing.

I am chasing a phantom for years. Where are you, my one bullet? You’ve wandered long enough, I need you so desperately. I long for your lingering embrace, sweet kisses, and a warm caress terribly. I’m dying to be with you and I’d do anything in my power to possess you.

A secret rendezvous of two people who crave for a sexual encounter, a person who abstained for so many years waiting for a lover abroad, or just a horny human being who just wants to release his pent up frustration for not having a partner and is so tired of doing a ‘selfie’ (masturbation). Believe me, the yearning seems unbearable each and every passing day especially when you entertain the thoughts and the feelings deep inside you. Truth be told, with more than six years of not having a man in my life, sometimes, I can’t help but wonder how it feels to make love again. I more than miss the masculine smell, the sound of steady breathing of someone I hold dear, the touch, and the knowledge that he is lying next to me. I can hold it no more, I think my mind will explode any minute now. I just want a man who will reciprocate my feelings. Someone who has the same level of passion that burns inside me. We could dance in harmony, our bodies intertwined, our soul combined while we reach the peak. That moment of ecstasy.

Talk about desperation. I came into a point in my life where I realized how badly I needed to be loved. I must admit that a man who will love me the way I love him will salvage me from all the heartaches and all the pains I’ve been through. Sadly, this man seems to be MIA (missing in action) until now. I hope and pray that he’ll show up soon and sweep me off my feet so I can be whole again.