I’m broken and completely wrecked. I tried to walk away. Yet, he refuses to let me go. And no matter how much I resist him we both know that what lies between us will always stay.
I am no martyr I tried to be numb with the pain but to no avail His silence is deafening. But once he opened his mouth, You don’t want to listen. He’s always near but seems so far He’s drifting away His heart had gone astray
Once in my life, I came to a point where I have to choose between holding on and letting go. The collision of these two is too painful and seems unbearable, I am on the verge of giving up. As far as I know, I’ve done too much for someone that the next step to do is to stop. Walk away, move on…
I am a sentimental fool and I am not ashamed to admit it. For me, it is an honesty that is raw but true. Emotional attachment to people or things is the blood that runs through my veins. It is what keeps my sanity amidst adversities. It is the force that drives me to be better everyday. It is the very reason why I chose to be more human.
Some may think that being sentimental is not only foolish but also a waste of time. I understand them but I disagree. I know that a sentimental person is strongly influenced by emotions than by reason. But it doesn’t mean that we can’t be rational. How could someone who has the ability to empathize and forgive others easily be irrational? That, I would never understand.
Sentimental is dealing with feelings of tenderness, sadness or nostalgia, typically in an exaggerated and self-indulgent way.
In all my life, I have never force someone to like or love me. I have never exerted any effort for others to accept me. Pretending is not my cup of tea. I want people to know me truly, to take me just as I am. If you reject me, I cannot do anything about it. I never chase people because I believe that if they belong to my life they will stay. It is a chance I willingly take as a sentimental fool and for me, it is freedom and it’s what makes me happy.
She met Dave Morrow a couple of months ago. They were introduced by a mutual friend. At the moment they shake hands, Grace felt electricity flows in her whole body. The one described in romance novel when two people is in love. Truth is, Grace doesn’t believe that but now she do. Unfortunately, Dave’s in a relationship and so does Grace. But every time they bumped with each other they’d find their eyes fixed with one another, and would exchange the sweetest smile. One time, inside the library, after saying hello’s they found each others lips and shared a passionate kiss. They both knew it was wrong. But they can’t help it. That was the start of their secret love affair.
They would find time to be together while hiding their relationship, they would make the most of every moment because they never know how long it will last. Grace cannot deny the fact that the happiest moments in her life were those shared with Dave. However, their world is getting too small and she knew that they cannot hide it too long. She broke up with her boyfriend but Dave cannot just do that. His girlfriend has a suicidal tendency.
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Dave: I thought we’d celebrate Thanksgiving together, why are you leaving?
Grace: I know, but I think this is much better. We need some space so we can think things over. This relationship is getting more complicated. I cannot go on like this. I need someone to stand by me, I want a man to fight for me and let the world know that he loves me.
Dave: I understand, and I am more than willing to do that for you, just give me some time.
Grace: That’s what I am giving you now. If you really love me and want this to work, leave her then comeback next week, I’ll wait. But if you did not come back it means goodbye.
Days turned into weeks, weeks into months Dave did not come back. It was the most painful thing, the hardest blow in her life. She wanted to breakdown. She cried a river.
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Dave: If you only knew how much I miss you! It’s been an everyday struggle trying to convince myself that it’s over. I hope you can forgive me for the pain I’ve caused you.
Grace: Let’s forget what happened. Time for us to move on. Good…
Before she can finish her word, Dave sealed it with a kiss. She can feel their pain and their longing with each other. He embraced her so tight, she hardly caught her breath. She can’t deny the fact the she wanted him so badly, she wanted to tell him to come back to her. She closed her eyes and savor every seconds of that kiss. In the spur of the moment, she found herself alone in that cold and empty street. Her eyes, blinded with tears. He ran away from her.
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Rain pours, she can ride to go home but chose to walk. She wanted the rain to wash away her pain. The night is still young and it’s really cold outside but she don’t mind. It is now clear that he cannot be hers. Time to go back to reality, time to move on…will they ever lost the connection? She doubt it.
Greetings wonderful people! Time for our weekly reflections again. Truth is, I have to stretch my thoughts to come up with something worth sharing and worth pondering. Please don’t think that I am not excited because I am. It’s just that there’s so many things that’s going on in my life these days, ninety nine percent is not pleasant, I should say with a sigh. But I’m fine. My flesh is weak but my spirit is renewed everyday, thank God!
Writing an article about forgiveness is something I have been aching since year 2005. I have read so many articles about this topic to widen my perspective and to condense all information to give justice to my post ( I am a kind of person who seldom challenge myself and in reality, I’d rather stay with my comfort zone). I’ve had a hard time convincing myself that I don’t need to bite more than I could chew. Continue reading “Weekly Quotes To Ponder 6”→
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Some may think that being sentimental is not only foolish but also a waste of time. I understand them but I disagree. I know that a sentimental person is strongly influenced by emotions than by reason. But it doesn’t mean that we can’t be rational. How could someone who has the ability to empathize and forgive others easily be irrational? That, I would never understand.
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