I’m Thankful For Tag

Oftentimes, we tend to overlook the things that matters a lot. Fate lends no one, the world mocks at us especially when it sees we’re on the verge of giving up. It makes us ungrateful sometimes or would it be right to say, we’re actually grateful but unable to express it openly because our anxieties overshadows it.

I am so delighted to receive a tag from a friend blogger, Sonali Mukherjee about her Thankfulness post. I dedicated this moment to participate to show how much I appreciate it. She never fail to include me whenever she received an award in blogging and it means a lot, she’s just so sweet.

For the rules:

1. List down three things you are thankful for.
2. Nominate fellow bloggers to continue the TAG.
3. Use a cool logo to match up with your even cooler answers.

My Answers:

1. Having a FAMILY I can call my own. I don’t have a normal upbringing with my family. I am being tossed from one relative to another and when I was in college, I need to live on my own in a province without any relatives. It makes life so tough that time – no one to turn to, no one to belong to. That’s why when I met my partner and God blessed us with four children, I couldn’t be more happier.
2. Being affiliated with MCGI (Members Church of God International). Being a Christian is the most wonderful gift I received from God Almighty. It made me realized my life’s purpose and no matter how difficult the path may be, I am confident that with God’s help and mercy, I can live the life that’s meant for me.
3. Blessings in disguise. Family life is quite tough. Before we reach our present status where we could now buy what we need as well as what we want, we have to go through too much difficulties during our first three years of building our family. There were even times that we barely eat a decent meal in a day. Our relatives would mock us and talk poorly about us in our face. Thank God, my partner is a strong-willed person. While I drown myself in tears, he did everything he can to find a regular job and support me emotionally and financially to pull myself up and land a career in a call center industry.

And for my nominees:

1. Kiwinana of Ramblings of a Writer
2. Miriam of Out ‘an About
3. Spiritualjourney17
4. Sonali of Howling With The Wolf

Forgive me, Sonali I just can’t help but include you. Here’s hoping you’d bear in mind how much I appreciate your wonderful blog, your comments in my posts, and everything about your friendship. Anyhow, there’s no need to participate if your time won’t allow it but I would be delighted if you would. Once again, thank you!

 

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 38

It’s time for our ‘Weekly Quotes To Ponder‘ moment. I can’t wait to share my thoughts about this quote.

I must say that I am one of the most stubborn and impossible person to deal with when it comes to relationships. I have a very volatile nature, I am neither hot nor cold. A gullible and impulsive type. No wonder I have few true friends. But that’s fine with me. I never chase people anyway.

I am more of a ‘do not do what you don’t want others to do unto you’ type of person. I’m sure most of us, if not all, is familiar with the ‘Golden Rule’. One more thing, I have a strong belief in free-will. Never would I force others to agree with my own opinions or ideals, same goes with my partner. I never forced him to stay with me even though we have children or for the sake of keeping our family, not even once and will never be in the future. But don’t get me wrong, even though I made this clear to him doesn’t mean I don’t give a damn. In the contrary, aside from my faith in God, my family is the most important thing in this world for me. In their smiles lies my strength to move on despite all the difficulties in my way. Hearing their laughter reminds me that it is still great to be alive though the world seems getting cruel and cruel as days passed by. If I don’t have them, I doubt if I could survive this far.

I just wanted to share the quote above to shout out to the world how blessed I am to have a partner who stayed by my side no matter what. I am truly blessed. We may have misunderstandings most of the times, we may fight with petty things but at the end of it all we still have each other’s back. I thank God for him.

How about you? Have you found someone who took you just as you are no matter how difficult you can be? I’d be delighted to read your thoughts about this.

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 37

Hi there people! We’re on our 37th Weekly Quotes To Ponder feature. I am suppose to do this yesterday, my mind is strong but my body won’t keep up that time so I decided to give myself a break. I’m sure you would agree that we all need to stop for a couple of minutes at times to allow our bodies to rest, we don’t want to be totally exhausted and end up so sick.

This time, I would like to get out of my comfort zone and try a different approach in sharing a quote. I just can’t help but share this video I found in my Facebook feed today.

 

I am teary-eyed while watching it, I can definitely relate. I don’t even have to elaborate what’s really going on with my everyday life as a Stay-At-Home-Mom – this video says it all.

Switching from working in the office to be a plain housekeeper is not an easy feat. There were even times I feel like a bum, I don’t have an income of my own and cannot even buy what I want for myself. Not to mention the difficulties of doing household chores that I am not used to. What I despise is the fact that I need to do things over and over again, I hate routines. However, if there’s one thing I love about staying at home it is the chance to bond with my children more often. The chance to interact with them almost all the time everyday. Seeing them smile, hearing them laugh, and seeing them living a good life is more than enough reason for me to survive this kind of life.

How about you? What are your thoughts about this? I would be delighted to read yours. Kudos to all stay-at-home-moms out there!

3Line Tales 35: Robot

photo by: Daniel Cheung

 

He added color to my world that’s gray
Right then and there, I live my life his way
Can’t even move unless I hear him say…

I’m glad I was able to partake in this week’s Three Line Tales! I could never forgive myself if I miss doing it this time. This would always be a great mental exercise, and the joy of reading other’s entries really makes my day. Amazing!

You may want to join us in this wonderful activity. For instructions, kindly click here. Thank’s for reading!

Irresistible

In your eyes all I can see
Is fading image of me
You are not what you used to be
Acting like you never once loved me
I may be wrong, but I bet
I cannot just forget
Your stare that captured my heart
Touch that brought me warmth
Smile that outshines the sun
And kisses that made me lost my mind
How could I possibly find courage
To let go of what’s really mine?

My Monthly Memories: January 2K17

It’s been about two days now that the first month of the year have ended. So abrupt that I haven’t even noticed it the other day. But if there’s one thing I won’t forget is doing #mymonthlymemories post. This would be my second year of doing this wonderful blogging activity hosted by a lovely blogger, Basant She. You may want to visit her blog, The Socially Anxious Extrovert and be entertained by her adventures about life.

      I love those random memories
      that makes me smile
      no matter what’s going on
      in my life right now…

I must say that this month of the year have been great and I’ve found myself smiling almost everyday. Learning the wisdom of giving without expecting anything in return, looking at things in a positive way no matter how awful it might be, and seeing the good side of others even if they did me wrong gave me peace of mind and happiness beyond measure. We truly have the power to turn disaster to our own advantage!

I would like to share my favorite post this January entitled, Silver Pride an entry to WordPress, Daily Prompt – Shine. It clearly defines how someone could still shine in the midst of adversities. I believe that the ability to surpass trials and difficulties in this life depends on a person’s mindset and determination. And I’m pretty sure almost all of you would agree that a problem is not really a problem if there’s a solution. So whatever situation we are in no matter how tough or insurmountable it may seem, we shouldn’t lose hope. Instead of wallowing in self doubt or self pity, we should put our best foot forward to advance and keep on going. Life may give us a series of unfortunate events but as long as God is allowing us to breath, we can still be happy and make others happy.

I’d like to share a few things that makes me happy these days:

Eat out with my children

Skype call from my partner

Eating one of my favorite foods

Writing using my pen with a cup of coffee

Cheers to a positive and happier February to all of us. I am grateful to God for all His grace. Having adorable and healthy children, and a very supportive partner is more than enough reason to celebrate life everyday.

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 36

 

This quote never fails to remind me of how things could be so extreme at times – be it good or bad. And today, things have gone from bad to worst. Truly, I am being tried on how I would deal with this blow. Until now, I am still trying to convince myself that I am just dreaming, that history would not repeat itself. If you’re following this blog for quite some time now, you may already read one of my posts entitled ‘Sudden Twist‘ where I shared a story about how a pet could touch someone’s heart.

 

while waiting for the vet

After what happened that time, I’ve been hesitant to get another puppy but since my children’s really fond of having a pet in the house, we bought ‘Maxie‘ (our second Chihuahua puppy) last December 10, 2016. She was one half month old then. Everything seems fine, she’s an adorable and energetic puppy and is fun to feed. Even giving her a bath is an easy task not to mention taking her outside for a walk in the morning. Then yesterday, we noticed that she’s not in her usual self, she seems so aloof and doesn’t want to eat. And her stool is watery. I took her to the vet this morning and have been diagnosed with Parvovirus – the same exact illness that struck our first puppy. I am truly broke – emotionally and financially. As of to date, she’d been given an antibiotic through IV and been confined in the clinic. According to the vet, there’s a fifty-fifty chance of survival so we’re still hoping she could make it.

I can’t help but wonder if this is just a coincidence or one of fate’s cruelty. When you are a stay at home mother of four children who rely upon just enough remittance abroad from your partner and is always struggling to make both ends meet, it is really tough to deal with this kind of situation. Honestly, I am caught in a dilemma at the last minute of taking our puppy to the vet. I even asked myself if it is worth the risk? I do understand the cost and it would really leave my wallet empty, however, I cannot just let the puppy die without giving it a chance. And besides, I don’t want to see it die in my arms just like our first puppy, so with closed eyes I did gave it a go. God’s willing, it will survive and worst come to worst, at least I won’t have any regrets.

While writing this post, I just received a call from the veterinary clinic saying that the puppy didn’t make it. I was shocked, it took me a minute or two to respond. Maybe it’s not yet time for us to have a long-term pet. Another heartbreak, I’d let it be for now. This too shall pass. I just pacify myself that even though she’s gone, all the fun memories we had with her would remain immortal.

Faith Amidst Fate

*Google image

Unpleasant past, burned letters
Its ashes gone with the wind
More than a decade
But the pain’s still here
Too real, too hard to conceal
Always pretend ’til I mend
And by then, myself I can convince
That we are not meant
To be lovers nor friends
But those eyes won’t disguise
Real feelings inside
Burning desire consuming your pride
I’m more than tired
Why fight what we can’t deny?
Give in even for once
Throw us a glance
Be lost in a trance
We’ll never know ’til we again try
Rare love we have found
It’s worth all the while

TANKA 14: There You’ll Be

 

Heart as cold as snow
Footprints telling where you’d go
Blinding sunlight, cool breeze
Wipes away my tears
Everywhere I am, there you’ll be

It’s been awhile since I joined a weekly TANKA challenge and I missed it so badly. I’m glad I now have a chance to catch up. You may also want to read and write, for instructions, kindly click here. Have a great one!

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 32

 

Have you ever been away with your family? When you’re used to spend your every day life with someone, do things with that person in a regular basis or he/she’s part of your daily routine, it’s not that easy to adjust or do stuffs without him/her  around anymore. It takes a lot of getting  used to and sometimes you’d even ask yourself if  it is real, the longing seems unbearable that at the back of your mind you’re convincing yourself that everything’s just a dream and all you need to do is wake up.

After living together for more than twelve years, my partner decided to work overseas to give us a better life and to prepare for our children’s future. It’s been about more than three years now and yet, I’m still struggling. I don’t think I can even get used to living without his physical presence especially when I’m seeing our children. Good thing he never fail to check on us on Facebook and he calls us regularly via Skype. It makes our distance closer and the longing quite bearable (still trying to convince myself here).

 

 

If we can afford to live a better life and prepare a bright future for our children without him going abroad and be away from us here in our own homeland, I’m pretty sure he’d prefer to stay beside me and raise our children together. I must say that he’s a lot more hands on with caring to our children than I am. He never fail to show how thoughtful and sweet he could be. Here’s hoping he’d bear in his mind that whenever he felt too worn out, he could always turn to us for moral support.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

That’s it for our ‘Weekly Quotes To Ponder’ feature. May God bless us all!