My Monthly Memories: November 2K16

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One month to go and year 2016 is over. That’s how fast time passed. It won’t wait for us, yet we could hardly keep up. We can only do what we can, we cannot stretch it or cheat it, all we can do is be wise in using it and make the most of what it offers. Such sentimentality, wouldn’t you agree?

This is actually in response to a blogging event called, My Monthly Memories hosted by a pretty blogger, Basant She. I would surely hate myself if I miss writing a post for this. I mean, I’ve been doing this every month, so no matter how busy I am, I must steal a few minutes of my time and partake. And besides, I’m so excited in sharing you all what transpired last month. Sharing is caring and it’s twice the fun.

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I love those random memories
that makes me smile no matter what’s going on
in my life right now…

I just checked a bunch of notifications in my gmail account and surprised to know that I received many likes, comments, and follows this week. As of  to date, I already have 321 followers, the last one would be  Blookup Blog. I also joined another blogging even called, Monday Morning Melts hosted by bloggers Jade and Rosema. You may want to check my first entry here. You’ll put a smile on my face if you do.

I can’t thank God enough for allowing me to write and share my thoughts with others thru this blog. This is one of the things that help me keep up with the world and serve a purpose in my life. Not to mention the wonders of decluttering my mind and detoxifying my soul. It has been a nice November as I expected.

Before I end this post, I would like to share these Anime must watch in YouTube as my way of saying thank you for all your support. Hoping that everyone is happy and doing well these days.

  1. Yu Yu Hakusho
  2. HunterXHunter
  3. Death Note
  4. Akatsuki No Yona
  5. Code Geass

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 32

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Have you ever been away with your family? When you’re used to spend your every day life with someone, do things with that person in a regular basis or he/she’s part of your daily routine, it’s not that easy to adjust or do stuffs without him/her  around anymore. It takes a lot of getting  used to and sometimes you’d even ask yourself if  it is real, the longing seems unbearable that at the back of your mind you’re convincing yourself that everything’s just a dream and all you need to do is wake up.

After living together for more than twelve years, my partner decided to work overseas to give us a better life and to prepare for our children’s future. It’s been about more than three years now and yet, I’m still struggling. I don’t think I can even get used to living without his physical presence especially when I’m seeing our children. Good thing he never fail to check on us on Facebook and he calls us regularly via Skype. It makes our distance closer and the longing quite bearable (still trying to convince myself here).

 

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If we can afford to live a better life and prepare a bright future for our children without him going abroad and be away from us here in our own homeland, I’m pretty sure he’d prefer to stay beside me and raise our children together. I must say that he’s a lot more hands on with caring to our children than I am. He never fail to show how thoughtful and sweet he could be. Here’s hoping he’d bear in his mind that whenever he felt too worn out, he could always turn to us for moral support.

 

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That’s it for our ‘Weekly Quotes To Ponder’ feature. May God bless us all!

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 30

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Hi there, people! Time for our ‘Weekly Quotes To Ponder‘ moment. This is actually a feature here in my blog where we can reflect about a quote and share our thoughts about it. Happiness is doubled when shared with others, right?

The quote above is one of my favorites. When I first encountered it, it answered some of my questions about how others treat us and made me understand human nature in an intimate sense. Most of the times, if not always, we tend to accuse others of things that we are doing without even being aware of it. We even blame others for our failures and unhappiness. Looking for a escape goat is but normal in this cruel world. There’s also a wisdom hidden in this quote that I was able to grasp – self realization and self value. If we really know ourselves and understands our importance in this life, we won’t allow others to define who we are.

“A beast in human’s clothing understands better than anyone how people want to be treated.” – Kurapika

How about you? What are your thoughts about this? I would be delighted if you’d share it with the rest of the world. God bless!

“If you want to get to know someone, find out what makes them angry.” – Gon Freecss

 

 

Tokens of Gratitude: RAIN

 

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Hi there people! It’s ‘BER‘ months again. It’s the time of the year when ‘Rainy Season‘ is at its peak here in the Philippines. For me, it is a perfect time to stay in the house in hibernation. While I like the sound of the rain as I lay in my bed, it also gives me a feeling of sadness, it brings back painful memories too. It’s like a teardrop of someone who cannot hold back the pain and cannot do anything but show the world how depressing life can be sometimes. But just like rain that waters the soil for plants to grow, tears could wash away bitterness and resentments too. Thus, trials and difficulties, heartbreaks and failures are necessary to hone our characters and make us a better person in the end. The choice is ours.

Anyone who thinks that sunshine is pure happiness, has never danced in the rain.

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Today, I give thanks to God Almighty for creating ‘rain’. I wouldn’t be this resilient and strong have I not encounter any difficulties and I may not appreciate happiness more have I not known sadness. Truly, God knows what’s best for us all! Cheers!

 

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 28

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Truth be told, I already forgot what life felt like before he came along. How could I? I’ve found someone who wants to learn every aspect of who I am. For the first few months of being together, he never fail to make me feel important. Just being with him is happiness. Seeing him smile is more than a pleasure. And I knew that he’s the one I would want to share my all until I breath my last. This faith kept me holding on and made me believe that true love knows no boundaries, and it measures no time nor space.

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But recently, I’ve found myself questioning my so-called faith. And in the wee hours of the night, when the whole world is fast asleep, I lay in my bed, tossing and turning. Thinking of any reason why a love that seems so strong and true is actually full of lies and deceit. I’m in denial stage.

The quote above summarizes it all. There are things in this life that is beyond our control. That sometimes, letting go doesn’t always mean we give up or we are weak. I am learning to accept what happened in the past and is now trying to put back the pieces of my trampled self and begin anew.

How about you? How are you dealing with failures? I would be delighted to read your comments. May God bless us all!

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 27

In about 10 months of blogging, I already made 200 posts and have 265 followers. Time fleets so fast, sometimes I could hardly keep up. Today is another ‘Weekly Quotes To Ponder‘ moment. And I’m on my 27th post so far. Amazing!

 

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I stumbled upon my daughter’s laptop while cleaning her room, she sometimes leaves it open when she’s in a hurry. Google chrome window is still open, I couldn’t help but check what website it’s on. I found this – May I Lick It Off For You?. This is some kind of short story or article written by her in a certain website. I know she’s into writing and I am actually the first one who encouraged her to continue doing it. After reading, I realized how far she improved with her grammar and I think she even found her niche as early as now. However, I am a bit anxious about the stories or fiction she’s writing about. For me, it’s too adult for her age (she just turned 14 last July). And to be honest, I don’t know how to react and as much as I want to confront her, I don’t know how? I’m quite confused and a bit scared at the same time. Having internet access 24/7 is really making children aware of things not yet suitable for their age. I must admit that technology is a boon and curse for teenagers.

 

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I do agree with the quote above. I could see it my daughters. They may have gotten some of my talents but they are way better than I am when I was their age, honestly. I am still one proud mom, somehow. And I can definitely say that my eldest daughter is morphing into a brilliant lady who knows how to find happiness and fulfillment in her own way. I’m not to hinder her from enjoying and making the most of her teenage life. I’m here to guide her and make her feel she’s loved no matter what.

May God bless us all!

 

 

 

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 26

 

 

COUPLE

 

One of the greatest feelings one could ever feel in this world is to love and to be loved. A kind of love that is mutual and reciprocal. It takes two to tango, right?

But love is not always about feelings. As a matter of fact, it is a decision. You’ll know that you truly love someone when that person becomes difficult to deal with and yet you stayed. This reality is so harsh that others jump from one relationship to another. They kind of do trial and error to find the right one for them. I also did that before. But when you found a total stranger and you both clicked, then you can’t even pinpoint the things that you did love about him/her, you just feel secure and happy, then you just found the one.

Love is not always a bed of roses, sometimes you also have to lay on a bed of nails to know that it’s for real. – Meeh

What if the person who once loved you, doesn’t love you anymore? Would you still be willing to love that person whole-heartedly even if it hurts to see him/her slowly drifting away from you? Could you bear seeing him doing the things he did with you doing it with someone else now? Truly it’s hard to give without expecting anything in return especially when it comes to romantic love. But it happens. Unrequited love does exist.

 

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Well, I think it would be our own decision to still love someone who cannot love us in return. For me, it is one of the noblest and greatest sacrifices and it’s all worth it. We should always remember that it is better to give than to receive. To love others that don’t love us is an opportunity given by God. We’ll reap our rewards in His own time.

How about you? What are your thoughts on this? I would be delighted to read your comments. Have a wonderful week everyone!

 

 

Tokens of Gratitude: Humility

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Hello there people! I’ve missed writing a ‘Tokens of Gratitude‘ post for a while and I feel so sorry about it. I really wanted to catch up and make up for the lost. So here I am.

I would always feel grateful for all the blessings that comes my way. Sometimes even the not so good things that’s happening in our lives are actually blessings in disguise. If you are a follower, you may notice that I’m going through rough times these past few months. I am caught up with so much pressure and stress – mentally and emotionally. But despite of it all, I am still thankful to God. With His help and mercy, I am learning to be more positive, resilient, and hopeful.

By the way, I would like to share this quote to you all, hopefully this would brighten your day and give you a moral booster.

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That’s it for now! Have a great weekend everyone!

 

A Captured Heart

lovely.jpgIn a mother’s heart
there grows a seed
of love that never dies.
& through that love
she gives her children
wings on which to rise

I used to be a free spirited person. I guess I still am, in some way. I have never known or have never been constrained by convention. Issues about life, problems and difficulties never bothered me back then. I always do the things that I think would make me happy. I’ve enjoyed my freedom a lot and I always decide on my own.

I am a risk-taker. I prefer to experience things first hand to realize its implications rather than listen and heed to the warnings of others. I tend to conceal my weakness by showing others how tough I can be when faced with life’s cruelties. Too few people knew how vulnerable I am. I created this facade to protect myself and to survive. I did survived. Then I thought life could be as simple as staying up all night, reading books or writing poems while looking at the bright night sky.

I am consumed by the world I created that when reality struck me, I am more than shocked. Something woke me up from my empty sleep. Someone taught me that there are far more important things to do in this life other than thinking of my own happiness, my own welfare.

children.jpgI still have my childish ways. Though I am already in my mid thirties, I still couldn’t convince myself that I am matured enough. I don’t even know the exact basis of maturity, to be honest. I never knew I could be capable of loving others unconditionally until I have my children. I’ve learned how to love without expecting anything in return. Seeing them living a good life, and hearing their laughter is more than enough antidote for stress. I couldn’t thank God enough for blessing me and entrusting me with these amazing creatures. Having them taught me to be considerate to others. That whatever decision I will make would greatly affect the people around me especially my loved ones.
I cannot be a perfect mother no matter how hard I try but one thing is for sure, I would do anything for my children’s sake even if it would cost me my own happiness.

 

The Best Is Yet To Come

I have never felt this exhausted. My energy have been drained from my body and I am more than immobile. My mind and my heart, drenched with pain, doubts and fear, they’re not functioning well. I can’t feel anything anymore. Just a sense of nothing. Ninety nine percent of my being wanted to go to oblivion. All I know now is I am floating in air. No heaviness. Chaos…

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So this is how it feels to fall out of love for someone or something. You don’t give a damn. You don’t care what will happen next. You lost all the reasons to hold on, the reason to fight. You lost sense of direction. This is not good. This is not bad either. I think this is a dangerous combination. Perhaps, one of the most challenging and difficult test in this life.

How can I survive when my only reason for survival has long been gone? Here I am again, wanted to sound funny when in fact everything at this moment seems ridiculous.

Maybe some girls are not meant to be tamed.
Maybe they are supposed to run wild…
Until they find someone just as wild to run with

All my life, all I ever wanted was to love and to be loved. I never wanted fame or fortune. I am not a materialistic type. I can be happy with small things. I am not hard to please. I must admit I can be upset so easily, I am an impulsive type. I can just burst into tears or laugh at the top of my lungs. I can be as mad as hell and could swallow a whole person but I can forgive people easily and forget everything in one sitting. I know at times, I am not easy to understand but all of us do. Wouldn’t you agree?

I would love to go to a place where I could clear my mind and release all the burdens I have in my heart. Be at peace. But there are times when the more we ache for that to happen the more it becomes elusive. And the more it hurts, the more it becomes intolerable.

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I’d let things be for now. I am heartbroken, lonely, hurt, lost, and weak.  I’ll just let them celebrate their victory and laugh at my defeat. I need to gather every strength left in me. I need to buy more time. As long as God is still letting me breath, as long as I see the sunrise in the velvet sky, I know that the best is yet to come…

Find a heart that will love you
at your worst
and
arms that will hold you at
your weakest.