NUMBERS

I am always fond of numbers. Ever since I’ve learned how to count, I’ve known its value or importance and how it affects our everyday lives. How an amount, no matter how small could make difference. Logic tells us that in a mathematical equation or even in simple computation, one wrong digit could definitely alter the projected outcome and could mess the total.

I dream in numbers, & I like to look up the meaning of numbers, & numbers stick out to me.
– Zoe MCLellan

I happened to be a victim of a number game these past few days. And for the first time in my life, I began to fear numbers. I just can’t believe this is really happening. It never crossed my mind that I would feel this way and for me, it’s bizarre. I am always enthusiastic writing numbers but at this moment, I just can’t find that feeling. I can’t even move my fingers and I can’t even find the courage to stare at the big amounts of bills in front of me. How I dreaded this damn situation.

The cost of living these days is so high that I felt like drowning, gasping for breath. My partners remittance abroad is barely enough to sustain our everyday needs so I decided to work as a freelancer. I am caught up in a number game again. This time, I need to learn how to manage time being a stay at home mother of four children and a full time technical support/sales agent. And it’s not an easy feat. I’ve never had enough sleep since then, I would be lucky enough to have at least four hour sleep a day. But I in spite of all my struggles, I still find joy inside me. Seeing my children happy and being able to give them what they need, what they deserve is more than enough to compensate me for all the hardships that I’m going through. I believe that this is just another blessings in disguise and I’m just grateful to God that He allowed it to happen.

Now, could I still say to myself that I am still fond of numbers? Yes, indeed! Counting my blessings always empowers me and gives me strength in each and every day. Here’s hoping this article inspires you!

Tokens of Gratitude : Birthday

 

Nothing beats an unplanned get away. March 14th 2017 marked our youngest son’s third birthday. As always, my children prefer to eat out, play arcades, and enjoy rides in a mall. Out of the blue, we’ve decided (I always involve my children with things like these to make sure they enjoy.) to go on a staycation.

 

 

staycation – a vacation spent in one’s home country rather than abroad, or one spent at home and involving day trips to local attractions.

The place we’ve visited is quite far from home and since we don’t own a car we have to endure riding a PUJ (Public Utility Jeep) and a train station to reach our destination. Nevertheless, my children enjoyed the journey and the scenery.

 

 

Today, I’d want to express how grateful I am that God allowed us to experience wonderful moments in celebration of our bundle of joy’s third birthday. We, as parents would always find delight in seeing the happiness in our children’s faces much more when they enjoy life and make memories that we could cherish afterwards.

 

 

I would like to share this YouTube video I created for our youngest bundle of joy, #hendrixkulit

 

 

I would also like to take this opportunity to thank God for His grace in giving my partner the ability to provide us with our needs and wants. I couldn’t be more thankful.

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 39

Sometimes, I deal with as many household chores as I can and do things simultaneously to buy some time to be alone and reflect afterwards. While sitting in my couch and looking blankly, I can’t help but wonder why there are people who’d rather stay with their pitiful situation than do something to change it or to at least try to pull themselves up? I understand, I cannot really tell what’s going on with someone else’s mind nor feel exactly how he/she must feel at a certain moment. However, most often than not, action speaks louder than words. It makes me sick to my stomach to see someone contented being a bum or a burden to others. Not that he’s helpless, as a matter of fact, others are trying to help him, but if he’s not going to help himself, no matter how many resources are available for him, it won’t make any difference. And what pisses me off is seeing this person go on with his life as if nothing really matters, enjoying himself, and it seems that he doesn’t have any plans in the future or whatever.

When we reached adulthood, we are expected to be independent and be responsible with our own life and future. We don’t stay with our parent’s house as if we are still children that is incapable of working for our own survival. For me, it is the time when we’re given a chance to take care of our parents like they did when we’re still young. We must understand that they are getting old and sooner than later, won’t be able to work for a living to continue supporting us. I once told myself that if I cannot be of help to my family, at least not to be a burden to them as much as possible. I held on to that promise until now and I must say that it guided me and gave me strength to survive my own battles.

Alright, this may sound like a rant. Forgive me but I have to let these things out of my chest right now or I’d have a heart attack or worst, would go berserk. Anyway, we’ve reached the 39th of our Weekly Quotes To Ponder moment. Here’s hoping I caught your interest with my thoughts and you gained something valuable from it. I would be delighted if you’d leave a comment. Remember, sharing is caring!

 

TANKA 18: In The Beach

 

Come here children
Indulge though this isn’t wonderland
Under the golden sun
Amidst the cool breeze we feel warm
Sharing one heartbeat, holding hands.

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Time for another TANKA poetry challenge. This one is another way to practice my poetry and I enjoyed it, as always. You may want to try this mental exercise. For instructions, kindly click here. This is a Weekly blogging activity hosted by a friend blogger, Kiwinana of Ramblings of a Writer. I can’t wait to read your entry.

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 37

Hi there people! We’re on our 37th Weekly Quotes To Ponder feature. I am suppose to do this yesterday, my mind is strong but my body won’t keep up that time so I decided to give myself a break. I’m sure you would agree that we all need to stop for a couple of minutes at times to allow our bodies to rest, we don’t want to be totally exhausted and end up so sick.

This time, I would like to get out of my comfort zone and try a different approach in sharing a quote. I just can’t help but share this video I found in my Facebook feed today.

 

I am teary-eyed while watching it, I can definitely relate. I don’t even have to elaborate what’s really going on with my everyday life as a Stay-At-Home-Mom – this video says it all.

Switching from working in the office to be a plain housekeeper is not an easy feat. There were even times I feel like a bum, I don’t have an income of my own and cannot even buy what I want for myself. Not to mention the difficulties of doing household chores that I am not used to. What I despise is the fact that I need to do things over and over again, I hate routines. However, if there’s one thing I love about staying at home it is the chance to bond with my children more often. The chance to interact with them almost all the time everyday. Seeing them smile, hearing them laugh, and seeing them living a good life is more than enough reason for me to survive this kind of life.

How about you? What are your thoughts about this? I would be delighted to read yours. Kudos to all stay-at-home-moms out there!

My Monthly Memories: January 2K17

It’s been about two days now that the first month of the year have ended. So abrupt that I haven’t even noticed it the other day. But if there’s one thing I won’t forget is doing #mymonthlymemories post. This would be my second year of doing this wonderful blogging activity hosted by a lovely blogger, Basant She. You may want to visit her blog, The Socially Anxious Extrovert and be entertained by her adventures about life.

      I love those random memories
      that makes me smile
      no matter what’s going on
      in my life right now…

I must say that this month of the year have been great and I’ve found myself smiling almost everyday. Learning the wisdom of giving without expecting anything in return, looking at things in a positive way no matter how awful it might be, and seeing the good side of others even if they did me wrong gave me peace of mind and happiness beyond measure. We truly have the power to turn disaster to our own advantage!

I would like to share my favorite post this January entitled, Silver Pride an entry to WordPress, Daily Prompt – Shine. It clearly defines how someone could still shine in the midst of adversities. I believe that the ability to surpass trials and difficulties in this life depends on a person’s mindset and determination. And I’m pretty sure almost all of you would agree that a problem is not really a problem if there’s a solution. So whatever situation we are in no matter how tough or insurmountable it may seem, we shouldn’t lose hope. Instead of wallowing in self doubt or self pity, we should put our best foot forward to advance and keep on going. Life may give us a series of unfortunate events but as long as God is allowing us to breath, we can still be happy and make others happy.

I’d like to share a few things that makes me happy these days:

Eat out with my children

Skype call from my partner

Eating one of my favorite foods

Writing using my pen with a cup of coffee

Cheers to a positive and happier February to all of us. I am grateful to God for all His grace. Having adorable and healthy children, and a very supportive partner is more than enough reason to celebrate life everyday.

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 32

 

Have you ever been away with your family? When you’re used to spend your every day life with someone, do things with that person in a regular basis or he/she’s part of your daily routine, it’s not that easy to adjust or do stuffs without him/her  around anymore. It takes a lot of getting  used to and sometimes you’d even ask yourself if  it is real, the longing seems unbearable that at the back of your mind you’re convincing yourself that everything’s just a dream and all you need to do is wake up.

After living together for more than twelve years, my partner decided to work overseas to give us a better life and to prepare for our children’s future. It’s been about more than three years now and yet, I’m still struggling. I don’t think I can even get used to living without his physical presence especially when I’m seeing our children. Good thing he never fail to check on us on Facebook and he calls us regularly via Skype. It makes our distance closer and the longing quite bearable (still trying to convince myself here).

 

 

If we can afford to live a better life and prepare a bright future for our children without him going abroad and be away from us here in our own homeland, I’m pretty sure he’d prefer to stay beside me and raise our children together. I must say that he’s a lot more hands on with caring to our children than I am. He never fail to show how thoughtful and sweet he could be. Here’s hoping he’d bear in his mind that whenever he felt too worn out, he could always turn to us for moral support.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

That’s it for our ‘Weekly Quotes To Ponder’ feature. May God bless us all!

3Line Tales 32: Child

photo by: Ben Rosett

Push the swing so high
I’d want to touch the blue sky
As the wind embrace me tight.

Here’s my entry for this week’s 3Line Tales. Thank you, Sonya of Only 100 Words for another intriguing photo prompt. I enjoyed this mental exercise, as usual. Fellows, if you’d like to join the fun, kindly click here for instructions.

Tokens of Gratitude: My Children

 

Hello world! Saturday is over here in my place, Philippines meaning I’m late for my ‘Tokens of Gratitude’ feature post (I’m blaming it to my busy schedule this week). But as the saying goes, ‘better to be late than never’. So here it is…

 

 

One of the most amazing gift God has given me is my children. I would always feel grateful to Him for entrusting me with such wonderful creatures.

 

Without my children,
my house would be clean & my wallet would be full but, my HEART would be EMPTY…