I am always fond of numbers. Ever since I’ve learned how to count, I’ve known its value or importance and how it affects our everyday lives. How an amount, no matter how small could make difference. Logic tells us that in a mathematical equation or even in simple computation, one wrong digit could definitely alter the projected outcome and could mess the total.
I dream in numbers, & I like to look up the meaning of numbers, & numbers stick out to me. – Zoe MCLellan
I happened to be a victim of a number game these past few days. And for the first time in my life, I began to fear numbers. I just can’t believe this is really happening. It never crossed my mind that I would feel this way and for me, it’s bizarre. I am always enthusiastic writing numbers but at this moment, I just can’t find that feeling. I can’t even move my fingers and I can’t even find the courage to stare at the big amounts of bills in front of me. How I dreaded this damn situation.
The cost of living these days is so high that I felt like drowning, gasping for breath. My partners remittance abroad is barely enough to sustain our everyday needs so I decided to work as a freelancer. I am caught up in a number game again. This time, I need to learn how to manage time being a stay at home mother of four children and a full time technical support/sales agent. And it’s not an easy feat. I’ve never had enough sleep since then, I would be lucky enough to have at least four hour sleep a day. But I in spite of all my struggles, I still find joy inside me. Seeing my children happy and being able to give them what they need, what they deserve is more than enough to compensate me for all the hardships that I’m going through. I believe that this is just another blessings in disguise and I’m just grateful to God that He allowed it to happen.
Now, could I still say to myself that I am still fond of numbers? Yes, indeed! Counting my blessings always empowers me and gives me strength in each and every day. Here’s hoping this article inspires you!
There are moments when we’re ‘spacing out’ or having a mental block. The world seem to stop revolving, the time standing still.
I know all of us experienced this thing not only once. Maybe that is our mind’s response once it reaches its limit. It seems that it automatically shuts itself off once it’s been used up already? If this is the case, why are there still people who lost their sanity? Is it because their will is weak? Or is it because they choose to lose their mind? Ah! even these questions doesn’t make any sense to me but somehow gives me something to ponder about. No wonder, it is hard to be an understanding person.
I just stumbled upon this quote and I can’t help but share it while smiling at myself at the same time in our 40th Weekly Quotes To Ponder feature. This is really a spot on. Do you agree with this quote? I would be delighted to read your comments.
And before I conclude this post, let me leave you another quote from David C. Pack. This is one hell of a statement I just can’t ignore:
“Most people live their entire lives without a clue as to why they are here. They drift aimlessly, unconcerned about the answers to life’s greatest questions-why life and why death? Others enjoy debating the meaning of life, but never arrive at the correct answers. Many conclude that mankind is little more than a product of evolution-blind, dumb luck!”
Then an answer from the Word of God – The Bible:
That’s what I got after ‘spacing out’. More insights to what life’s all about. Thank God for all the wisdom and for His saving grace. I now know what my life’s purpose and I’m following it.
Sometimes, I deal with as many household chores as I can and do things simultaneously to buy some time to be alone and reflect afterwards. While sitting in my couch and looking blankly, I can’t help but wonder why there are people who’d rather stay with their pitiful situation than do something to change it or to at least try to pull themselves up? I understand, I cannot really tell what’s going on with someone else’s mind nor feel exactly how he/she must feel at a certain moment. However, most often than not, action speaks louder than words. It makes me sick to my stomach to see someone contented being a bum or a burden to others. Not that he’s helpless, as a matter of fact, others are trying to help him, but if he’s not going to help himself, no matter how many resources are available for him, it won’t make any difference. And what pisses me off is seeing this person go on with his life as if nothing really matters, enjoying himself, and it seems that he doesn’t have any plans in the future or whatever.
When we reached adulthood, we are expected to be independent and be responsible with our own life and future. We don’t stay with our parent’s house as if we are still children that is incapable of working for our own survival. For me, it is the time when we’re given a chance to take care of our parents like they did when we’re still young. We must understand that they are getting old and sooner than later, won’t be able to work for a living to continue supporting us. I once told myself that if I cannot be of help to my family, at least not to be a burden to them as much as possible. I held on to that promise until now and I must say that it guided me and gave me strength to survive my own battles.
Alright, this may sound like a rant. Forgive me but I have to let these things out of my chest right now or I’d have a heart attack or worst, would go berserk. Anyway, we’ve reached the 39th of our Weekly Quotes To Ponder moment. Here’s hoping I caught your interest with my thoughts and you gained something valuable from it. I would be delighted if you’d leave a comment. Remember, sharing is caring!
It’s time for our ‘Weekly Quotes To Ponder‘ moment. I can’t wait to share my thoughts about this quote.
I must say that I am one of the most stubborn and impossible person to deal with when it comes to relationships. I have a very volatile nature, I am neither hot nor cold. A gullible and impulsive type. No wonder I have few true friends. But that’s fine with me. I never chase people anyway.
I am more of a ‘do not do what you don’t want others to do unto you’ type of person. I’m sure most of us, if not all, is familiar with the ‘Golden Rule’. One more thing, I have a strong belief in free-will. Never would I force others to agree with my own opinions or ideals, same goes with my partner. I never forced him to stay with me even though we have children or for the sake of keeping our family, not even once and will never be in the future. But don’t get me wrong, even though I made this clear to him doesn’t mean I don’t give a damn. In the contrary, aside from my faith in God, my family is the most important thing in this world for me. In their smiles lies my strength to move on despite all the difficulties in my way. Hearing their laughter reminds me that it is still great to be alive though the world seems getting cruel and cruel as days passed by. If I don’t have them, I doubt if I could survive this far.
I just wanted to share the quote above to shout out to the world how blessed I am to have a partner who stayed by my side no matter what. I am truly blessed. We may have misunderstandings most of the times, we may fight with petty things but at the end of it all we still have each other’s back. I thank God for him.
How about you? Have you found someone who took you just as you are no matter how difficult you can be? I’d be delighted to read your thoughts about this.
Hi there people! We’re on our 37th Weekly Quotes To Ponder feature. I am suppose to do this yesterday, my mind is strong but my body won’t keep up that time so I decided to give myself a break. I’m sure you would agree that we all need to stop for a couple of minutes at times to allow our bodies to rest, we don’t want to be totally exhausted and end up so sick.
This time, I would like to get out of my comfort zone and try a different approach in sharing a quote. I just can’t help but share this video I found in my Facebook feed today.
I am teary-eyed while watching it, I can definitely relate. I don’t even have to elaborate what’s really going on with my everyday life as a Stay-At-Home-Mom – this video says it all.
Switching from working in the office to be a plain housekeeper is not an easy feat. There were even times I feel like a bum, I don’t have an income of my own and cannot even buy what I want for myself. Not to mention the difficulties of doing household chores that I am not used to. What I despise is the fact that I need to do things over and over again, I hate routines. However, if there’s one thing I love about staying at home it is the chance to bond with my children more often. The chance to interact with them almost all the time everyday. Seeing them smile, hearing them laugh, and seeing them living a good life is more than enough reason for me to survive this kind of life.
How about you? What are your thoughts about this? I would be delighted to read yours. Kudos to all stay-at-home-moms out there!
This quote never fail to remind me of how things could be so extreme at times – be it good or bad. And today, things have gone from bad to worst. Truly, I am being tried on how I would deal with this blow. Until now, I am still trying to convince myself that I am just dreaming, that history would not repeat itself. If you’re following this blog for quite sometime now, you may already read one of my posts entitled ‘Sudden Twist‘ where I shared a story about how a pet could touch someone’s heart.
After what happened that time, I’ve been hesitant to get another puppy but since my children’s really fond of having a pet in the house, we bought ‘Maxie‘ (our second Chihuahua puppy) last December 10, 2016. She was one half month old then. Everything seems fine, she’s an adorable and energetic puppy and is fun to feed. Even giving her a bath is an easy task not to mention taking her outside for a walk in the morning. Then yesterday, we noticed that she’s not in her usual self, she seems so aloof and doesn’t want to eat. And her stool is watery. I took her to the vet this morning and have been diagnosed with Parvovirus – the same exact illness that struck our first puppy. I am truly broke – emotionally and financially. As of to date, she’d been given an antibiotic through IV and been confined in the clinic. According to the vet, there’s a fifty fifty chance of survival so we’re still hopeful she could make it.
I can’t help but wonder if this is just a coincidence or one of fate’s cruelty. When you are a stay at home mother of four children who relies with just enough remittance abroad from your partner and is always struggling to make both ends meet, it is really tough to deal with this kind of situation. Honestly, I am caught in a dilemma at the last minute of taking our puppy to the vet. I even asked myself if it is worth the risk? I do understand the cost and it would really leave my wallet empty however, I cannot just let the puppy die without giving it a chance. And besides I don’t want to see it die in my arms just like our first puppy, so with closed eyes I did gave it a go. God’s willing, it will survive and worst come to worst, at least I won’t have any regrets.
While writing this post, I just received a call from the veterinary clinic saying that the puppy didn’t make it. I was shocked, it took me a minute or two to respond. Maybe it’s not yet time for us to have a long term pet. Another heart break, I’d let it be for now. This too shall pass. I just pacify myself that even though she’s gone, all the fun memories we had with her would remain immortal.
I just got a notification from WordPress that I’ve reached my 5th year anniversary! Well, technically, I did registered last five years ago but it was only January of last year that I started writing posts. Though I don’t consider this as an anniversary in blogging, I still want to celebrate and express how grateful I am to be able to fulfill my long time dream of having a blog. It truly is, amazing!
The joy and happiness I’ve felt when I first had my first follower, the first like and comment I received from a fellow blogger followed by so many is something I would cherish for the rest of my life. And with such things, I am more inspired to share my thoughts and feelings that I believe would touch another soul in one way or another and would somehow help others to at least lighten their burden, shed light amidst darkness and confusion, or bring hope through creative writing.
Writing for me is freedom at its very sense. When I write, I can live more than one life and walk more than one path. I can escape reality and dictate whatever the ending I want. I can make my failures a success, I can twist even the untwisted. It’s my echoes against my silence.
How about you? What are your thoughts about writing? I’d be happy if you’d share yours. God bless everyone!