My Monthly Memories: August 2K17

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It has been about four months now since I landed a full time home based job as a Technical Support/Sales and it’s been about that period that I haven’t written any article in this blog aside from this monthly blogging event, #mymonthlymemories. A big shout out to a pretty blogger, Basant She of The Socially Anxious Extrovert for coming up with such an amazing idea of making a journal in one’s blog in at least once a month. I would be delighted for you to read other’s entries and more if you’d join us as well. For instructions, kindly click here.

Timing has never been this cruel. Every attempt of doing things right within my perceived time frame is not working for me these days. This is just so ridiculous and unfair. I am having difficulty understanding what the universe is trying to tell me.

Good timber does not grow with ease.
The stronger the wind the stronger the trees. – Thomas S. Monson

Truth be told, I am not a patient person. I despise having to wait, especially if it is something that could be done right away. I know we cannot outrun time let alone snatch back moments that passed us by. Our situation last week has been tougher than tough. It was as if all forces in heaven and on earth is in connivance to pin me down. It was awful. Every twist and turn of events, obviously, isn’t in my side. I’m on the verge of breaking down. I’ve never felt so dragged and exhausted, never felt so mocked and helpless.

 

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I love those random memories that makes me smile;
no matter what’s going on in my life right now.

 

 

 

I’m not trying to be funny here, forgive me that this may turn out to be a rant o a way to vent my frustrations with life. Believe me, I didn’t mean to sound like that. I’m not begging for sympathy, I am just being kind to myself by de-cluttering my mind and detoxifying my soul. This is my blog, anyway. I would do anything I can to lessen my burden because my children still needs me. With God’s help and mercy, I know these difficulties shall pass. I just need to keep the faith, hold on, and keep on moving forward no matter what.

Here’s hoping beyond hopes for a wonderful and fruitful September for all of us. Cheers!

 

 

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My Monthly Memories: July 2K17

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This must be one hell of a rough month in blogging I must say. I’ve attempted a couple of times to write and post an article and to my dismay, unable to. I’ve never felt so helpless and weak with my blog before. It’s as if one of my dreams is dying on me. But I won’t let this continue. I would do everything I could to keep this blog even if it would mean taking an hour out of my sleeping time to make up for all the loss. I’m just so thankful that there are still people who’d spare a couple of minutes of their precious time to check on my posts, hit like, write a comment. For all fellow bloggers who followed my blog, let me express how grateful I am, you’re all awesome.

 

brilliantI love those random memories
That makes me smile;
No matter what’s going on
In my life right now…

This is in response to a blogging event, entitled #mymonthlymemories hosted by a friend-blogger, of The Socially Anxious ExtrovertYou may want to visit her wonderful blog and find articles worthy to read. Better yet, join us in writing your monthly memories about what transpired in your blog and in your life every month. Nostalgia is always a good thing. It paints a smile on our lips whenever it reminds us of things that happened in the past that’s worth remembering, things that made us so happy. Making us realize how beautiful life could be no matter what is in front of us in the present, may it bad, or worse. And when everything seems to go down the drain, it is what keeps us our sanity and our drive for success. I always find delight in sharing a part of myself and writing a monthly journal, as I put it, is one way to declutter my mind, relieve my soul from too many burdens. Thus, making room for positive thoughts and feelings.

July’s definitely a hectic and productive month when it comes to working from home. I was able to land additional part time job as an email responder. I just started last week and now awaiting my first salary this coming Friday.  The pay is not that decent compared to my full time job as a Technical Support/Sales Representative but at least it will still help us with our growing everyday expenses. As I always say, we can only do so much and part of me is not pleased since I am way behind with all the blogging event I join every week. It’s really hard to keep up.

I won’t promise but I’m confident enough to be back with a bang. I know I’m way past contemplating. still, I believe that God gave us the ability to do what we want and need to do as long as we put our minds to it and do it with hope and dedication. Here’s cheering for an amazing August.

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I am always fond of numbers. Ever since I’ve learned how to count, I’ve known its value or importance and how it affects our everyday lives. How an amount, no matter how small could make difference. Logic tells us that in a mathematical equation or even in simple computation, one wrong digit could definitely alter the projected outcome and could mess the total.

I dream in numbers, & I like to look up the meaning of numbers, & numbers stick out to me.
– Zoe MCLellan

I happened to be a victim of a number game these past few days. And for the first time in my life, I began to fear numbers. I just can’t believe this is really happening. It never crossed my mind that I would feel this way and for me, it’s bizarre. I am always enthusiastic writing numbers but at this moment, I just can’t find that feeling. I can’t even move my fingers and I can’t even find the courage to stare at the big amounts of bills in front of me. How I dreaded this damn situation.

The cost of living these days is so high that I felt like drowning, gasping for breath. My partners remittance abroad is barely enough to sustain our everyday needs so I decided to work as a freelancer. I am caught up in a number game again. This time, I need to learn how to manage time being a stay at home mother of four children and a full time technical support/sales agent. And it’s not an easy feat. I’ve never had enough sleep since then, I would be lucky enough to have at least four hour sleep a day. But I in spite of all my struggles, I still find joy inside me. Seeing my children happy and being able to give them what they need, what they deserve is more than enough to compensate me for all the hardships that I’m going through. I believe that this is just another blessings in disguise and I’m just grateful to God that He allowed it to happen.

Now, could I still say to myself that I am still fond of numbers? Yes, indeed! Counting my blessings always empowers me and gives me strength in each and every day. Here’s hoping this article inspires you!

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 40

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There are moments when we’re ‘spacing out’ or having a mental block. The world seem to stop revolving, the time standing still.
I know all of us experienced this thing not only once. Maybe that is our mind’s response once it reaches its limit. It seems that it automatically shuts itself off once it’s been used up already? If this is the case, why are there still people who lost their sanity? Is it because their will is weak? Or is it because they choose to lose their mind? Ah! even these questions doesn’t make any sense to me but somehow gives me something to ponder about. No wonder, it is hard to be an understanding person.

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I just stumbled upon this quote and I can’t help but share it while smiling at myself at the same time in our 40th Weekly Quotes To Ponder feature. This is really a spot on. Do you agree with this quote? I would be delighted to read your comments.

And before I conclude this post, let me leave you another quote from David C. Pack. This is one hell of a statement I just can’t ignore:

“Most people live their entire lives without a clue as to why they are here. They drift aimlessly, unconcerned about the answers to life’s greatest questions-why life and why death? Others enjoy debating the meaning of life, but never arrive at the correct answers. Many conclude that mankind is little more than a product of evolution-blind, dumb luck!”

Then an answer from the Word of God – The Bible:

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That’s what I got after ‘spacing out’. More insights to what life’s all about. Thank God for all the wisdom and for His saving grace. I now know what my life’s purpose and I’m following it.

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 39

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Sometimes, I deal with as many household chores as I can and do things simultaneously to buy some time to be alone and reflect afterwards. While sitting in my couch and looking blankly, I can’t help but wonder why there are people who’d rather stay with their pitiful situation than do something to change it or to at least try to pull themselves up? I understand, I cannot really tell what’s going on with someone else’s mind nor feel exactly how he/she must feel at a certain moment. However, most often than not, action speaks louder than words. It makes me sick to my stomach to see someone contented being a bum or a burden to others. Not that he’s helpless, as a matter of fact, others are trying to help him, but if he’s not going to help himself, no matter how many resources are available for him, it won’t make any difference. And what pisses me off is seeing this person go on with his life as if nothing really matters, enjoying himself, and it seems that he doesn’t have any plans in the future or whatever.

When we reached adulthood, we are expected to be independent and be responsible with our own life and future. We don’t stay with our parent’s house as if we are still children that is incapable of working for our own survival. For me, it is the time when we’re given a chance to take care of our parents like they did when we’re still young. We must understand that they are getting old and sooner than later, won’t be able to work for a living to continue supporting us. I once told myself that if I cannot be of help to my family, at least not to be a burden to them as much as possible. I held on to that promise until now and I must say that it guided me and gave me strength to survive my own battles.

Alright, this may sound like a rant. Forgive me but I have to let these things out of my chest right now or I’d have a heart attack or worst, would go berserk. Anyway, we’ve reached the 39th of our Weekly Quotes To Ponder moment. Here’s hoping I caught your interest with my thoughts and you gained something valuable from it. I would be delighted if you’d leave a comment. Remember, sharing is caring!

 

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 38

It’s time for our ‘Weekly Quotes To Ponder‘ moment. I can’t wait to share my thoughts about this quote.

I must say that I am one of the most stubborn and impossible person to deal with when it comes to relationships. I have a very volatile nature, I am neither hot nor cold. A gullible and impulsive type. No wonder I have few true friends. But that’s fine with me. I never chase people anyway.

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I am more of a ‘do not do what you don’t want others to do unto you’ type of person. I’m sure most of us, if not all, is familiar with the ‘Golden Rule’. One more thing, I have a strong belief in free-will. Never would I force others to agree with my own opinions or ideals, same goes with my partner. I never forced him to stay with me even though we have children or for the sake of keeping our family, not even once and will never be in the future. But don’t get me wrong, even though I made this clear to him doesn’t mean I don’t give a damn. In the contrary, aside from my faith in God, my family is the most important thing in this world for me. In their smiles lies my strength to move on despite all the difficulties in my way. Hearing their laughter reminds me that it is still great to be alive though the world seems getting cruel and cruel as days passed by. If I don’t have them, I doubt if I could survive this far.

I just wanted to share the quote above to shout out to the world how blessed I am to have a partner who stayed by my side no matter what. I am truly blessed. We may have misunderstandings most of the times, we may fight with petty things but at the end of it all we still have each other’s back. I thank God for him.

How about you? Have you found someone who took you just as you are no matter how difficult you can be? I’d be delighted to read your thoughts about this.

Weekly Quotes To Ponder 37

Hi there people! We’re on our 37th Weekly Quotes To Ponder feature. I am suppose to do this yesterday, my mind is strong but my body won’t keep up that time so I decided to give myself a break. I’m sure you would agree that we all need to stop for a couple of minutes at times to allow our bodies to rest, we don’t want to be totally exhausted and end up so sick.

This time, I would like to get out of my comfort zone and try a different approach in sharing a quote. I just can’t help but share this video I found in my Facebook feed today.

 

I am teary-eyed while watching it, I can definitely relate. I don’t even have to elaborate what’s really going on with my everyday life as a Stay-At-Home-Mom – this video says it all.

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Switching from working in the office to be a plain housekeeper is not an easy feat. There were even times I feel like a bum, I don’t have an income of my own and cannot even buy what I want for myself. Not to mention the difficulties of doing household chores that I am not used to. What I despise is the fact that I need to do things over and over again, I hate routines. However, if there’s one thing I love about staying at home it is the chance to bond with my children more often. The chance to interact with them almost all the time everyday. Seeing them smile, hearing them laugh, and seeing them living a good life is more than enough reason for me to survive this kind of life.

How about you? What are your thoughts about this? I would be delighted to read yours. Kudos to all stay-at-home-moms out there!