Beyond Hope #SoCS

beyond.jpgI have never felt this cold before. It’s as if I am inside a refrigerator waiting to be frozen to death and to meet oblivion. I feel more than numb, the excruciating pain I felt a couple of minutes ago is gone. I fell into a deep slumber. But before my consciousness left me, I finally utter my last prayer, that if ever fate would be kind enough to wake me up, I would be given a chance to find the man of my dreams alone and free.

 

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I ache to see his eyes burn for me, so intense that it could melt my heart in seconds. I want to feel the warmth of his touch, that lingering embrace that makes me feel secure. I would love to see us holding hands in public. Kissing me softly in front of other people. I would like to show the whole world that he is mine and I am his. That our love could outshine even the hotness of the sun.

 

Greetings!

This is in response to a Saturday blogging event hosted by Linda G. Hill entitled, Stream of Consciousness Saturday 

This may be late but better be late than never. Cheers!

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Imagination Without Limits at Carpe Diem Haiku Kai

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Hi there people! It’s been awhile since I joined a blogging event because of my full-time work as a Freelancer. But since we don’t have work for this week, I have time to write on my blog and I couldn’t be happier.

Above is my entry for this ‘Experimental Haiku’ that tells a story with a minimum of words. If you’re following this blog, you’ll know that I am fond of writing brief and meaningful tale out of stunning photo prompts.

 

Fondness for Him

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I never felt safe and warm with someone other than him. Whenever I feel anxious and panicky, I just think of leaning my head on his shoulder or putting my face on his chest while I take a deep breath and everything seems to be alright.

Do you believe that the best love is unexpected? That you just don’t pick someone and cross your fingers that it’ll work out? That love, at first sight, is but a tip of the ice burg? When I talk and notice the way his lips curve when he smiles or the glow in his eyes while he listens to me without batting an eyelash. But of course, love is more of a decision not just feelings. When the other person becomes difficult to deal with and yet you stayed, that’s when you’ll know that it’s love. Genuine love is selfless and full of hope.

Nothing in the world smells as good as the person you love…

This really beats me. Whenever I encounter a place we’ve been, I can’t help but reminisce everything we’ve shared. His smell still lingers in our bed, and even in my head. I crave for his presence now that we’re a thousand miles apart and I doubt if I could ever love this way again.

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My Monthly Memories: August 2K17

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It has been about four months now since I landed a full time home based job as a Technical Support/Sales and it’s been about that period that I haven’t written any article in this blog aside from this monthly blogging event, #mymonthlymemories. A big shout out to a pretty blogger, Basant She of The Socially Anxious Extrovert for coming up with such an amazing idea of making a journal in one’s blog in at least once a month. I would be delighted for you to read other’s entries and more if you’d join us as well. For instructions, kindly click here.

Timing has never been this cruel. Every attempt of doing things right within my perceived time frame is not working for me these days. This is just so ridiculous and unfair. I am having difficulty understanding what the universe is trying to tell me.

Good timber does not grow with ease.
The stronger the wind the stronger the trees. – Thomas S. Monson

Truth be told, I am not a patient person. I despise having to wait, especially if it is something that could be done right away. I know we cannot outrun time let alone snatch back moments that passed us by. Our situation last week has been tougher than tough. It was as if all forces in heaven and on earth is in connivance to pin me down. It was awful. Every twist and turn of events, obviously, isn’t in my side. I’m on the verge of breaking down. I’ve never felt so dragged and exhausted, never felt so mocked and helpless.

 

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I love those random memories that makes me smile;
no matter what’s going on in my life right now.

 

 

 

I’m not trying to be funny here, forgive me that this may turn out to be a rant o a way to vent my frustrations with life. Believe me, I didn’t mean to sound like that. I’m not begging for sympathy, I am just being kind to myself by de-cluttering my mind and detoxifying my soul. This is my blog, anyway. I would do anything I can to lessen my burden because my children still needs me. With God’s help and mercy, I know these difficulties shall pass. I just need to keep the faith, hold on, and keep on moving forward no matter what.

Here’s hoping beyond hopes for a wonderful and fruitful September for all of us. Cheers!

 

 

My Monthly Memories: July 2K17

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This must be one hell of a rough month in blogging I must say. I’ve attempted a couple of times to write and post an article and to my dismay, unable to. I’ve never felt so helpless and weak with my blog before. It’s as if one of my dreams is dying on me. But I won’t let this continue. I would do everything I could to keep this blog even if it would mean taking an hour out of my sleeping time to make up for all the loss. I’m just so thankful that there are still people who’d spare a couple of minutes of their precious time to check on my posts, hit like, write a comment. For all fellow bloggers who followed my blog, let me express how grateful I am, you’re all awesome.

 

brilliantI love those random memories
That makes me smile;
No matter what’s going on
In my life right now…

This is in response to a blogging event, entitled #mymonthlymemories hosted by a friend-blogger, of The Socially Anxious ExtrovertYou may want to visit her wonderful blog and find articles worthy to read. Better yet, join us in writing your monthly memories about what transpired in your blog and in your life every month. Nostalgia is always a good thing. It paints a smile on our lips whenever it reminds us of things that happened in the past that’s worth remembering, things that made us so happy. Making us realize how beautiful life could be no matter what is in front of us in the present, may it bad, or worse. And when everything seems to go down the drain, it is what keeps us our sanity and our drive for success. I always find delight in sharing a part of myself and writing a monthly journal, as I put it, is one way to declutter my mind, relieve my soul from too many burdens. Thus, making room for positive thoughts and feelings.

July’s definitely a hectic and productive month when it comes to working from home. I was able to land additional part time job as an email responder. I just started last week and now awaiting my first salary this coming Friday.  The pay is not that decent compared to my full time job as a Technical Support/Sales Representative but at least it will still help us with our growing everyday expenses. As I always say, we can only do so much and part of me is not pleased since I am way behind with all the blogging event I join every week. It’s really hard to keep up.

I won’t promise but I’m confident enough to be back with a bang. I know I’m way past contemplating. still, I believe that God gave us the ability to do what we want and need to do as long as we put our minds to it and do it with hope and dedication. Here’s cheering for an amazing August.

My Monthly Memories: May 20K17

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I love those random memories
That makes me smile;
No matter what’s going on
In my life right now…

 

 

Hi there people! I’ve been doing this blogging event called #mymonthlymemories for more than a year now. This is hosted by a gorgeous blogger, Basant She of The Socially Anxious Extrovert. I always enjoy writing, reading, and being nostalgic. For me, looking back serves as a tracker of my progress as an individual and as inspiration to be a better version of myself. For full instructions, kindly click here. It’d be great to be updated with your blog as well.

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This month, I must say is terrific. Everything’s mixed up. Emotional roller coaster ride, financial crisis, health issues, and pressure at work. Thank God, I’m surviving.

Forcing myself to be tough in times when I feel weaker than weak is more than I can handle. And yet, here I am, with God’s help and mercy, able to stand in the midst of a difficult battle. I may be a loner but when it comes to trials and adversities I prefer to have someone to lean on, someone who’ll be there to at least listen to me while I pour all my worries and fears. It doesn’t matter if that person would be able to help me solve my problem, being there to lend an ear, offering a shoulder to cry on, and giving words of encouragement is more than enough to make me feel quite at ease.

Push yourself because no one else is going to do it for you.

Having a domestic partner abroad, I am left alone to care for our four children and be a housekeeper. Damn, I hate the housekeeper part, honestly. It never crossed my mind that I’d be trapped in this kind of situation. My only consolation is I now have plenty of time to be with my children and bond with them. Forgive me for my random thoughts. Huh! isn’t it what this blog is all about? Jeez!

Going back to my blog, I must say that this May would be the month of the year that I’ve written few articles and I’m guilty as ever. What I’m going through these days put a toll in my writing, sad to say. Hopefully this June would be different. I’d appreciate having you check one of my favorite entry for this month entitled, Numbers.

I may have little time for my blog for now but rest assured that it won’t be abandoned. I can also sneak with your blogs from time to time and write articles whenever time permits. I can still see new follows, likes, and comments and it makes me feel more than appreciated and inspired. Here’s hoping to keep up with this fast paced world of ours and enjoy life no matter how fierce and cruel it may be. Cheers to a new month!

NUMBERS

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I am always fond of numbers. Ever since I’ve learned how to count, I’ve known its value or importance and how it affects our everyday lives. How an amount, no matter how small could make difference. Logic tells us that in a mathematical equation or even in simple computation, one wrong digit could definitely alter the projected outcome and could mess the total.

I dream in numbers, & I like to look up the meaning of numbers, & numbers stick out to me.
– Zoe MCLellan

I happened to be a victim of a number game these past few days. And for the first time in my life, I began to fear numbers. I just can’t believe this is really happening. It never crossed my mind that I would feel this way and for me, it’s bizarre. I am always enthusiastic writing numbers but at this moment, I just can’t find that feeling. I can’t even move my fingers and I can’t even find the courage to stare at the big amounts of bills in front of me. How I dreaded this damn situation.

The cost of living these days is so high that I felt like drowning, gasping for breath. My partners remittance abroad is barely enough to sustain our everyday needs so I decided to work as a freelancer. I am caught up in a number game again. This time, I need to learn how to manage time being a stay at home mother of four children and a full time technical support/sales agent. And it’s not an easy feat. I’ve never had enough sleep since then, I would be lucky enough to have at least four hour sleep a day. But I in spite of all my struggles, I still find joy inside me. Seeing my children happy and being able to give them what they need, what they deserve is more than enough to compensate me for all the hardships that I’m going through. I believe that this is just another blessings in disguise and I’m just grateful to God that He allowed it to happen.

Now, could I still say to myself that I am still fond of numbers? Yes, indeed! Counting my blessings always empowers me and gives me strength in each and every day. Here’s hoping this article inspires you!