It is easy to wear a smile when life flows along like a river with crystal clear waters. Cheerfulness comes naturally and positive aura is written all over one’s face. It goes without saying that wearing a frown is as natural as breathing when everything goes dead wrong.
Truth be told, I am not the strong person I pretended to be. With all the crisis we’ve been going through since the beginning of this year, the demands of raising four children alone (physically, I mean. My partner abroad never fail to support us), and the pressure of finding a decent work from home job is making me feel so exhausted. I just want to disappear. However, holding on to my sanity and forcing myself to be someone with iron will is out of the question – God entrusted me with adorable little creatures I cannot just abandon.
Finding some ‘me’ time is not really an issue because I am not the type of housekeeper who’d die finishing all household chores before taking a break. I won’t let time beat me or at least that’s what I thought. Harsh as it is, reality speaks that time can never be tamed. Once it’s gone, we cannot take it back. No wonder, God created memories and dreams.
Today, I would like to express how grateful I am that God allowed me to cherish wonderful memories and to dream about wonderful things. It helps me escape my present reality for a moment and gives me the will to hold on, to see things in a positive perspective, and to hope that the best is yet to come.