I’m broken and completely wrecked. I tried to walk away. Yet, he refuses to let me go. And no matter how much I resist him we both know that what lies between us will always stay.
I am no martyr
I tried to be numb with the pain but to no avail
His silence is deafening.
But once he opened his mouth,
You don’t want to listen.
He’s always near but seems so far
He’s drifting away
His heart had gone astray
Once in my life, I came to a point where I have to choose between holding on and letting go. The collision of these two is too painful and seems unbearable, I am on the verge of giving up. As far as I know, I’ve done too much for someone that the next step to do is to stop. Walk away, move on…
Every inch of me is telling me to let go, be kind to myself. This is actually the right thing for me to do but I can’t. Please don’t ask me why, I cannot put my answer into words. I even hate myself for my inability to stand to what my mind is telling me and I despise the fact that until now I can’t let go of all the things that we’ve been through, things that made me extremely happy, things that made my life worthwhile. These are worth fighting for. Undeniable.
When I am almost over him that’s when he’d say, let’s start all over again. How can I refuse?
I still love him…